I'm so tired of everything school related but time moves on so I'm forced to continue. this thesis shit is overstimulating and overwhelming I do not enjoy it.

I think I just don't enjoy getting restricted with my creative endeavors, and that's basically what the thesis is doing

ugh I am spiraling down for some reason right now and I don't like where my thoughts just went. i would say I just need to actually sleep (it's 5 am as of writing this) but my brain won't shut up.

kinda going through it more than I'd like to admit... hopefully i just need college to be over. i probably still be not fine after but the stress of everything is amplifying my thoughts

I think I become a lot more vulnerable and sensitive when under extreme stress which is happening rn. i don't like my thoughts I want this stress to be over

suddenly felt extremely lonely...

getting fatigue after exams for the second time.... not fun !!!

thinking about the future..... I don't even know if I'm gonna survive on my own lowkey. I don't really wanna say I'll just figure it out in the future but also..... I sure hope future me figures something out

I actually need some time for myself desperately.

college is just so fucking tiring. why do i have the whole week except sunday as just class day this is not healthy at all.

I don't think I've been doing okay recently... I feel burnt out with college. I don't have any motivation to do my schoolwork at all. Exams week is literally this week and I just... I don't particularly feel good about it. I'll prob pull through when the dread hits but I can't keep doing this cycle.

deckblue isn't showing this account properly what is happening

ranting here is so weird. I only ever do it when the doom of it all gets to me and I need to release it somewhere so I just post it to a brick wall in hopes that ppl who mostly understand me get what I mean.

being a computer guy that likes AI but has basic moral standards is hard. people's view of it is so polarized. I don't even know if I can say that "AI has some good applications" without getting flak

I feel like nuance is a lost art these days. internet opinions are always so polarized.

polarized opinions are sometimes needed, yes, but there's always a nuance to everything. I guess it's more that people don't bother with it because the Gorithm decided training short attention spans is good.

shower thought of the day: aroace NSFW artists are very noble to me

it's like "I will guide you to something I cannot achieve*" vibes. very respectable. keep it up.

*I know aroace ppl can still experience it (I'm one after all) but it's rare so

it really pisses me off when people don't take politics seriously like wdym ur voting For The Memes.

Are You Being Fr Rn cuz if you are Then Don't Even Dare Talk To Me Ever Again. go and pick the best thing for your country, even if the best isn't that good. politics is not a thing to mess about.

atp america should take notes from france. protest the hell out y'all. every state.

how the fuck is the american election real

okay slay this will be a more personal account YIBPEE

i may block more here mostly to enforce the 18+ thing... NOT NSFW BLUESKY I KNOW YOU'RE LISTENING