It’s hard to explain to people what has been experienced in the last couple years. Still fall unconscious sometimes. But it seems there is no going back anymore.

Still takes someone like ZDoggMD 25m to talk about {THIS}

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xga1...

A lifelong imaginary narrative shattered. Brought up so many tears and so much rage.
But something loosened.
No more burden of owing something just for being here.

#koan
If you are not trapped
in being or nonbeing,
who can dare to join you?

Everyone wants to leave
the ordinary current,

but in the final analysis
you come back
and sit in the ashes.

terebess.hu/zen/5ranks.h...