I've inflicted a lot of social self-destruction on myself because I didn't understand that. Maybe if something like that reached me at the time I would have been a lot better off, but I could be paying for it the rest of my life.

"It is okay to be bad at things. It's okay to not be good, too. You are 1 player of 1 game - you're playing the top N players in the world, but even so: You take all of this very personally because of how we set each other up in this space, and you are taking Ls way, way too hard."

Reflecting on it recently - Zidane had sat me down one time and tried to give me some perspective and advice, but I was just at a time in my life where I was not hearing it. I owe the guy an apology - maybe he didn't have the words at the time, but I think I have the words for myself, now:

And that's the whole story with these goons. Incompetent, juvenile, clownshoes people who are only there because their patron and employer wants people as Loyal as they are Willing to do anything to get ahead.

Clowns. A fucking circus.