spoiler: I want to ✨d*e✨

if it isnt the consequences of my actions lol. atp it wasn’t even worth it and now I’m probably going to wind up with severe health problems as a result. smh

I don’t really care about anything anymore. 2500 is a LOT of debt for me. not for most but for ME. I promised myself I’d never go into credit card debt and now I’m stressed depressed suic*dal because i don’t want to live like this anymore. What do I do when my rent goes up in July?!

I used to be able to, while single and working PART TIME, be able to afford more than just the bare necessities. Now I’m lucky if my paycheck is good enough to cover rent water and electricity. Sometimes I have to choose between electricity and groceries

I went to Japan in October for TWO WEEKS and lost probably 10 lbs. I lived primarily on carbs because my anxiety kept me from going to restaurants. (I can’t order food in the US myself either)…

THERE WILL BE NO PEACEFUL REVOLUTION! NO WAR WITHOUT BLOOD #BringMeTheHorizon

UNITED WE’LL FAIL DIVIDED WE’LL FALL

this will probably turn into my diary so puhlease—— we listen and we don’t judge 😀

I do have a job… but I’m over 3,000 in credit card debt and barely making ends meet. I can’t buy groceries 99% of the time and have a literal crippling caffeine addiction. I seriously will make a gofundme and the goal will be for me and others like me who want to move abroad.+

I need help escaping this country. I.NEED.HELP.ESCAPING.THIS.COUNTRY. (I’m not super smart and I have SEVERE DEBILITATING anxiety.) I have a passport and 2 cats… Should I create an escape the dictatorship go fund me and assuming it made enough $ I could use it to help others who also want to leave