there is just. so many things. and i'll make at least one of them someday i WILL
it just is going to be hard. which isn't bad.... but is something i gotta be prepared for.

gah... then there is writing projects like fics and original stuff but committing to those... i had one big thing i worked on with someone for awhile but i got burntout/lost focus (which i still feel so bad about)

rather than anything actually original - but i want to do more. actual proper movement in animation, or maybe something simpler like tweening. animation memes or animatics. and music wise i want to actually, you know, make something original. not just from samples.

other things i want to do in general, not necessarily in big projects, are making music and animating. i've dabbled with both - making the occasional very low movement flipnote or gif on the animation side, and using trials for music making programs that more just led to using in-program samples

other stuff is i wanna make comics. a webcomic!! i have some broad ideas, but again, all the smaller details... and the biggest problem with all projects i do is i am bad at staying motivated and focused on them for long periods of time... but the want is THERE

but i also want to use it to explore her a bit out of it? like, her relationship with herself/sexuality (i really want to include some demon/monsterfucking.....)
i've just... yet to come up with the details. but i am really trying to come up with stuff (even making a fake frame, here!)

doing one for flan is what im really thinking about rn (vns on the mind in general thanks to playing stuff from the toxic yuri vn jam), i just... don't know what part of her story i want to tell. or i guess i do, i wanna make a one off that just surrounds one of her many demon hunting jobs

i wanna make a game. rpgmaker or visual novel type thing. the latter feels much more doable and like it'd be a better way to tell a story the way i want to? i wanna try making some small ones that follow small self contained stories, my biggest struggle is figuring that story out.

okay so i spent. far too many hours last night and today but i went and got rid of like. 90 percent of the stuff here and cut my following list down. there will still be porn and fandom stuff here just much less frequently + more geared stuff that makes my brain want to make stuff

that said if we are mutuals and i unfollow you that's just so that i can keep my feed focus on the stuff that will help me stay focused on this endevour & i totally understand if people unfollow as i go for this shift yall are still wonderful <3

fuck it, that's what i'll do. most of the stuff i've been boosting here is the same stuff i did on twitter, i think this will be a decent place for my to focus on projects of the odder variety, esp since those biggest inspirations seem to have settle here