ive been doing nothing since ive woke up but cry, i still am and just the thought i want to give up and just dissapear just keeps repeating, it feels like ive lost hope, like im really ready to be done

i wish this longing for love and grieving of this person would just turn to resentment, the ida of not being able to stand the thought of her sounds incredible by now, im so tired of crying almost every day. its gotten worse its just the fact in waking up that brings me to tears