aka i willingly continue to make stupid decisions and For What

honestly it is not that big of a deal i will be Very Sad and Upset when he decides he’s sick of me or doesn’t wanna see me anymore but I’ll live. the end will definitely suck tho

also he keeps saying he doesn’t wanna date me bc I’m “too young” which is fine!!!! I’m fine with that!!!! HE keeps bringing it up and saying things like “i’m gunna take you on an actual date” and sending me romantic songs and kissing me in bars ???? I’M FINE SIR ARE U????? MAKE UP UR MINDDDD

i haven’t finished a book in at least a year… i do rlly RLLY miss reading but idk that that justifies building a small library in my bedroom

just in the past 6 months i’ve done more things i thought i’d never be able to do than i have in my entire life—getting a full time big girl job, going out to bar shows n shit by myself, solo traveling, making friends (????), finally losing my v card, etc. like maybe life IS beautiful

i was cute when i came back to drop off the vape money… emotional rollercoaster

literally right in front of me (car trying to turn left from the right lane smashed into another car) but i get there literally 60 seconds before they close. on my way home i almost got hit (twice) by other drivers, then a deer jumps out at me (i did not hit it 🙏🏽) then other gas station girly said—