I'll be okay, I know I'll get mine in due time, I think this is just some sort of final test from the universe. I won't have to hurt like this anymore, soon enough. I just have to stay strong

I didnt think it woukd hurt quite like this. I really really wish it didn't

to experience and share wholeness, together. to witness the divine truth, the Self, reflected in eachothers eyes like etheric mirrors

to be needed for who I am

I've been sleeping pretty poorly recently, so experiencing someone's physical love warmth would do wonders for me

now that im really digesting all of this right now, maybe this is a result of unlocking my sacral chakra. Its like, finally letting the energy flow through that was blocked or stifled for so long. What once was a leak, is now a waterfall

think I need to keep making art from a place of authenticity and passion, even if that passion is of sexual nature. It feels, almost ritualistic, in a way

it all feels good, like really really good, and it's ultimately accompanied with loving intent, so how could I deny that? maybe this is part of my purpose? what a funny thing

when inquiring within, what I just heard was "keep going" so like, I guess we're just gonna keep doing that lol

do I need to double down on my drawing abilities so I can get this stuff out of my brain, or would that be feeding it further? so many questions xwx perhaps im overthinking this whole thing, but its certainly been interesting. I guess its not hurting me or anyone, so it cant be a bad thing, right?

what do I even do with these thoughts, besides just let them exist? perhaps im feeding too much energy into them and letting them snowball by following the thoughts rather than just observing them?

is this part of the healing process, or a result of it? is this really what its like to let myself be more self indulgent without shame?

it didnt used to be this much before and im really curious what specifically has caused this?,, the closest correlation lines up with me working on healing subconscious blockages recently, among a lot of other personal life shifts recently. Im like a whole new critter sharing the memories of another

I think the more comfy I've gotten with myself, the more those roots started sprouting to the surface, I cant deny that I am a very very sexual critter, and it's something I very much need to mutually share with my future partner