I just want to be drinking coca cola and eating crisps like every second of every day but I can't afford that and also I'd die or whatever

I can’t sleep bc if I cant stop thinking about stuff that makes me cry. I’m so fucking worthless and stupid

Plus It’s insanely difficult not to take it as confirmation that nobody likes me and that I’m bothering everybody/generally unpleasant to be around so it’s a vicious cycle lol. I don’t know what to do about it. Hope everybody else’s behaviour changes, suddenly become not insane, kill myself?

update: it has now been like over a day and I reminded him to look at the message when we were in a discord call together an hour ago and he still hasn't so my brain has been fully destroyed and he wins