Yer gettin mair Scottish ilka day, Ahm sae prood!

I am much better to the point that worries me lol
also as you said, tying suffering to higher art is an utmostly dangerous and ridicolous idea that you shall remind thyself even when it doesn't feel like it. Your authenticity might change, but it's always you and i think thats what rl matters!

just, the point I am trying to make is I know how it is like to be a different person in every breathe you take, and die in every breath yo give. to whom does a person supposed to trust if not even who they are?

i unfrotunately lack any advice, especially so since I lack drawing experience, other than superficial stuff like "have different project simultinuasly going on for different moods because you know it won't be last you feel like that.

and I fear it has gotten to point where I am straight up afraid of healing or getting better so much so that I fear my artistic worth is tied to when I suffer. Looking back I feel terrified that there are moments I now realise were pure self-sabotage only so i can feel awful and write better.

this is genuinely do relatable.(not with drawing though, I am not at that skill level)
but you can just tell from the quality that if i was splitting in whatever I write. I sometimes get excited for a new project, write an amasing passage and can never proceed simply I am not in that "mood" anymore

bir sevgilim yokken sevgililer günümü kutlamak birazcık yaraya tuz basmak gibi oluyor bottan ama yine de müteşekkürüm sanırım

Hell aye, lass! Ye'll be bletherin like a true Scot afore ye ken it!

keitoke would you accept sheep as a form of payment like a nomad, this is of extreme vitality.

im like shalgam was a guy

i hope this whole things(buth turkish and american tariffs i mean) doesn't hurt your sales and stuff!