LuluTegaladwenNotesse
@tegaladwennotesse.bsky.social
#Atheist. 50. France.
#NonBinary, any pronoun.
#MentalHealth, #fibromyalgia
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#cptsd & religious #cultsurvivor
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#Pyrography #painting #photography
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#NonBinary, any pronoun.
#MentalHealth, #fibromyalgia
Poet. Artist.
#cptsd & religious #cultsurvivor
Home use art
#Pyrography #painting #photography
Books, nerding, games, movies, shows, music
https://linktr.ee/lulublue777
hopefully this is a mark of shift of balance to go to bluer days & greener pastures... and that it'll be MANY women to rule the one who shall remain as nameless as the dark lords & who should be rotting in prison...
November 10, 2025 at 12:31 PM
hopefully this is a mark of shift of balance to go to bluer days & greener pastures... and that it'll be MANY women to rule the one who shall remain as nameless as the dark lords & who should be rotting in prison...
🧵🧵🧵 (4) I'll defo deep dive research + ask about it to my various medical professionals... I see both the psychotherapist and the pain center physiotherapist in december.
November 10, 2025 at 12:28 PM
🧵🧵🧵 (4) I'll defo deep dive research + ask about it to my various medical professionals... I see both the psychotherapist and the pain center physiotherapist in december.
🧵🧵🧵 (3)
as, perhaps, but Idk for sure, i guess I may have either had fibro, or developped it during that decade & half of extremely repeated, prolongued, traumas... I already know they caused my cptsd's, a bunch of anxiety disorders & several phobias.... I wouldn't put it past it, such relationship
as, perhaps, but Idk for sure, i guess I may have either had fibro, or developped it during that decade & half of extremely repeated, prolongued, traumas... I already know they caused my cptsd's, a bunch of anxiety disorders & several phobias.... I wouldn't put it past it, such relationship
November 10, 2025 at 12:28 PM
🧵🧵🧵 (3)
as, perhaps, but Idk for sure, i guess I may have either had fibro, or developped it during that decade & half of extremely repeated, prolongued, traumas... I already know they caused my cptsd's, a bunch of anxiety disorders & several phobias.... I wouldn't put it past it, such relationship
as, perhaps, but Idk for sure, i guess I may have either had fibro, or developped it during that decade & half of extremely repeated, prolongued, traumas... I already know they caused my cptsd's, a bunch of anxiety disorders & several phobias.... I wouldn't put it past it, such relationship
🧵🧵🧵 (2)
they ofc wouldn't have known about this fibro back then (it was the 1980's & early 90's) but still, it feels so weird to have so many memories of yore flood my systems with new understanding of how I was & what I most probably already suffered with... fibro, on top or as result of traumas
they ofc wouldn't have known about this fibro back then (it was the 1980's & early 90's) but still, it feels so weird to have so many memories of yore flood my systems with new understanding of how I was & what I most probably already suffered with... fibro, on top or as result of traumas
November 10, 2025 at 12:28 PM
🧵🧵🧵 (2)
they ofc wouldn't have known about this fibro back then (it was the 1980's & early 90's) but still, it feels so weird to have so many memories of yore flood my systems with new understanding of how I was & what I most probably already suffered with... fibro, on top or as result of traumas
they ofc wouldn't have known about this fibro back then (it was the 1980's & early 90's) but still, it feels so weird to have so many memories of yore flood my systems with new understanding of how I was & what I most probably already suffered with... fibro, on top or as result of traumas
health 🧵 (8)
having realized these, I recalled vividly how every other pain, acute or chronic alike, any booboo & accidental cuts etc, all have always taken forever to heal.
having realized these, I recalled vividly how every other pain, acute or chronic alike, any booboo & accidental cuts etc, all have always taken forever to heal.
November 10, 2025 at 12:22 PM
health 🧵 (8)
having realized these, I recalled vividly how every other pain, acute or chronic alike, any booboo & accidental cuts etc, all have always taken forever to heal.
having realized these, I recalled vividly how every other pain, acute or chronic alike, any booboo & accidental cuts etc, all have always taken forever to heal.
health 🧵 (7)
TW
back in january 2018, i had a surgery for a rare type of skin cancer, that I luckily had on left calf, really far from any organs.
I still have pains & electrical discharges in that scar, tho surgeon & dermatologist who sent me there both said it shouldn't last more than a year...
TW
back in january 2018, i had a surgery for a rare type of skin cancer, that I luckily had on left calf, really far from any organs.
I still have pains & electrical discharges in that scar, tho surgeon & dermatologist who sent me there both said it shouldn't last more than a year...
November 10, 2025 at 12:20 PM
health 🧵 (7)
TW
back in january 2018, i had a surgery for a rare type of skin cancer, that I luckily had on left calf, really far from any organs.
I still have pains & electrical discharges in that scar, tho surgeon & dermatologist who sent me there both said it shouldn't last more than a year...
TW
back in january 2018, i had a surgery for a rare type of skin cancer, that I luckily had on left calf, really far from any organs.
I still have pains & electrical discharges in that scar, tho surgeon & dermatologist who sent me there both said it shouldn't last more than a year...
health 🧵 (6)
1 of my at-home physio exercices I have to do regarding putting pressure on a scale, to see how much of my body i can support on this bad foot. I've improved from about 20% to 45% of my body weight, but there's still a lot to go...
Stairs & inclines are foes I hate to face.
1 of my at-home physio exercices I have to do regarding putting pressure on a scale, to see how much of my body i can support on this bad foot. I've improved from about 20% to 45% of my body weight, but there's still a lot to go...
Stairs & inclines are foes I hate to face.
November 10, 2025 at 12:18 PM
health 🧵 (6)
1 of my at-home physio exercices I have to do regarding putting pressure on a scale, to see how much of my body i can support on this bad foot. I've improved from about 20% to 45% of my body weight, but there's still a lot to go...
Stairs & inclines are foes I hate to face.
1 of my at-home physio exercices I have to do regarding putting pressure on a scale, to see how much of my body i can support on this bad foot. I've improved from about 20% to 45% of my body weight, but there's still a lot to go...
Stairs & inclines are foes I hate to face.
health 🧵 (5)
this fibro explains why it takes anything forever to heal in my body : that sprain becoming that pain syndrom, having to walk with a cane, at about 35% of my initial speed... with a small autonomy without it (650 m at best, 400 & less on bad days)...
this fibro explains why it takes anything forever to heal in my body : that sprain becoming that pain syndrom, having to walk with a cane, at about 35% of my initial speed... with a small autonomy without it (650 m at best, 400 & less on bad days)...
November 10, 2025 at 12:18 PM
health 🧵 (5)
this fibro explains why it takes anything forever to heal in my body : that sprain becoming that pain syndrom, having to walk with a cane, at about 35% of my initial speed... with a small autonomy without it (650 m at best, 400 & less on bad days)...
this fibro explains why it takes anything forever to heal in my body : that sprain becoming that pain syndrom, having to walk with a cane, at about 35% of my initial speed... with a small autonomy without it (650 m at best, 400 & less on bad days)...
health 🧵 (4)
doubts regarding fibro, which were afterwards corroborated by these doctors, pertain to a bunch of different pains, both acute & chronic, that i'd had throughout my life. After the dx, I feel not only seen but I understand certain things better...
doubts regarding fibro, which were afterwards corroborated by these doctors, pertain to a bunch of different pains, both acute & chronic, that i'd had throughout my life. After the dx, I feel not only seen but I understand certain things better...
November 10, 2025 at 12:10 PM
health 🧵 (4)
doubts regarding fibro, which were afterwards corroborated by these doctors, pertain to a bunch of different pains, both acute & chronic, that i'd had throughout my life. After the dx, I feel not only seen but I understand certain things better...
doubts regarding fibro, which were afterwards corroborated by these doctors, pertain to a bunch of different pains, both acute & chronic, that i'd had throughout my life. After the dx, I feel not only seen but I understand certain things better...
health 🧵 (3)
team also has a therapist, specializing in relationship of body, pains (esp chronic) & one's mind etc. I saw her in January (2025) shortly after this pain center started following my case, but only as part of a group thing. I may also see her 1:1 if needed
team also has a therapist, specializing in relationship of body, pains (esp chronic) & one's mind etc. I saw her in January (2025) shortly after this pain center started following my case, but only as part of a group thing. I may also see her 1:1 if needed
November 10, 2025 at 12:10 PM
health 🧵 (3)
team also has a therapist, specializing in relationship of body, pains (esp chronic) & one's mind etc. I saw her in January (2025) shortly after this pain center started following my case, but only as part of a group thing. I may also see her 1:1 if needed
team also has a therapist, specializing in relationship of body, pains (esp chronic) & one's mind etc. I saw her in January (2025) shortly after this pain center started following my case, but only as part of a group thing. I may also see her 1:1 if needed
health 🧵 (2)
I'm followed by a team in our hospital's pain center : an algologist, tho I assume the name shall evolve to match "CRPS".
A physiotherapist.
A nurse - she'll preside over a 2-part whole day informational exchanged in March, to help me become autonomous in dealing w/ my fibro.
I'm followed by a team in our hospital's pain center : an algologist, tho I assume the name shall evolve to match "CRPS".
A physiotherapist.
A nurse - she'll preside over a 2-part whole day informational exchanged in March, to help me become autonomous in dealing w/ my fibro.
November 10, 2025 at 12:07 PM
health 🧵 (2)
I'm followed by a team in our hospital's pain center : an algologist, tho I assume the name shall evolve to match "CRPS".
A physiotherapist.
A nurse - she'll preside over a 2-part whole day informational exchanged in March, to help me become autonomous in dealing w/ my fibro.
I'm followed by a team in our hospital's pain center : an algologist, tho I assume the name shall evolve to match "CRPS".
A physiotherapist.
A nurse - she'll preside over a 2-part whole day informational exchanged in March, to help me become autonomous in dealing w/ my fibro.
🐍 🧵 16
I jump at every sound, every person, esp a walking child who might hooligan me.
Been taking my antianxiety med more often than b4 - after consulting my therapist, ofc.
None of these stressed help to fight what I now know that I have, after a very recent diagnosis : fibromyalgia.
I jump at every sound, every person, esp a walking child who might hooligan me.
Been taking my antianxiety med more often than b4 - after consulting my therapist, ofc.
None of these stressed help to fight what I now know that I have, after a very recent diagnosis : fibromyalgia.
November 10, 2025 at 11:59 AM
🐍 🧵 16
I jump at every sound, every person, esp a walking child who might hooligan me.
Been taking my antianxiety med more often than b4 - after consulting my therapist, ofc.
None of these stressed help to fight what I now know that I have, after a very recent diagnosis : fibromyalgia.
I jump at every sound, every person, esp a walking child who might hooligan me.
Been taking my antianxiety med more often than b4 - after consulting my therapist, ofc.
None of these stressed help to fight what I now know that I have, after a very recent diagnosis : fibromyalgia.
🐍 🧵 15
i'm exhausted. From these experiences. From my already existing conditions. From the state of the world on fire.
From selfishness of ppl in general & some in particular.
None of this helps to de-stress. So, tho I may still be able to laugh watching funny things/shows, I'm on edge.
i'm exhausted. From these experiences. From my already existing conditions. From the state of the world on fire.
From selfishness of ppl in general & some in particular.
None of this helps to de-stress. So, tho I may still be able to laugh watching funny things/shows, I'm on edge.
November 10, 2025 at 11:59 AM
🐍 🧵 15
i'm exhausted. From these experiences. From my already existing conditions. From the state of the world on fire.
From selfishness of ppl in general & some in particular.
None of this helps to de-stress. So, tho I may still be able to laugh watching funny things/shows, I'm on edge.
i'm exhausted. From these experiences. From my already existing conditions. From the state of the world on fire.
From selfishness of ppl in general & some in particular.
None of this helps to de-stress. So, tho I may still be able to laugh watching funny things/shows, I'm on edge.
🧵 14
also got a 2nd appointment at police station, to addendum our previous complaint, which was mainly on damaged properties but now this evident attempt at breaking & entering...
also got a 2nd appointment at police station, to addendum our previous complaint, which was mainly on damaged properties but now this evident attempt at breaking & entering...
November 10, 2025 at 11:13 AM
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also got a 2nd appointment at police station, to addendum our previous complaint, which was mainly on damaged properties but now this evident attempt at breaking & entering...
also got a 2nd appointment at police station, to addendum our previous complaint, which was mainly on damaged properties but now this evident attempt at breaking & entering...
🧵 13
did so on phone this morning & later repated in email, cos dude wasn't only unaware of our case, but seemed to need coffee to start the day, didn't understand half of my call...
did so on phone this morning & later repated in email, cos dude wasn't only unaware of our case, but seemed to need coffee to start the day, didn't understand half of my call...
November 10, 2025 at 11:13 AM
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did so on phone this morning & later repated in email, cos dude wasn't only unaware of our case, but seemed to need coffee to start the day, didn't understand half of my call...
did so on phone this morning & later repated in email, cos dude wasn't only unaware of our case, but seemed to need coffee to start the day, didn't understand half of my call...
🧵 12
namely : my GAD, and all the various & specific traumas that have been triggered by all these attacks.
Chronic depression, cptsd's & ptsd's, feeling insecure at home, fighting agoraphobia & antisocial moods at the moment...
so, contacted housing company, again...
namely : my GAD, and all the various & specific traumas that have been triggered by all these attacks.
Chronic depression, cptsd's & ptsd's, feeling insecure at home, fighting agoraphobia & antisocial moods at the moment...
so, contacted housing company, again...
November 10, 2025 at 11:13 AM
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namely : my GAD, and all the various & specific traumas that have been triggered by all these attacks.
Chronic depression, cptsd's & ptsd's, feeling insecure at home, fighting agoraphobia & antisocial moods at the moment...
so, contacted housing company, again...
namely : my GAD, and all the various & specific traumas that have been triggered by all these attacks.
Chronic depression, cptsd's & ptsd's, feeling insecure at home, fighting agoraphobia & antisocial moods at the moment...
so, contacted housing company, again...
🧵 11
Wife told me that on halloween eve, when she came back home from a party we were at, and whilst I stayed to sleep at the friends cos of stairs & my mobility issues (separate story to come), she saw traces of their shoes already... just didn't tell me, due to my already exisiting issues..
Wife told me that on halloween eve, when she came back home from a party we were at, and whilst I stayed to sleep at the friends cos of stairs & my mobility issues (separate story to come), she saw traces of their shoes already... just didn't tell me, due to my already exisiting issues..
November 10, 2025 at 11:13 AM
🧵 11
Wife told me that on halloween eve, when she came back home from a party we were at, and whilst I stayed to sleep at the friends cos of stairs & my mobility issues (separate story to come), she saw traces of their shoes already... just didn't tell me, due to my already exisiting issues..
Wife told me that on halloween eve, when she came back home from a party we were at, and whilst I stayed to sleep at the friends cos of stairs & my mobility issues (separate story to come), she saw traces of their shoes already... just didn't tell me, due to my already exisiting issues..
(10 of tw'ing 🧵)
yesterday, they came back, hitting the door handle, leaving traces of their shoes all over. They'd even knicked some of the paint off the stiles.
Once more, bashed the living room shutters.
yesterday, they came back, hitting the door handle, leaving traces of their shoes all over. They'd even knicked some of the paint off the stiles.
Once more, bashed the living room shutters.
November 10, 2025 at 11:07 AM
(10 of tw'ing 🧵)
yesterday, they came back, hitting the door handle, leaving traces of their shoes all over. They'd even knicked some of the paint off the stiles.
Once more, bashed the living room shutters.
yesterday, they came back, hitting the door handle, leaving traces of their shoes all over. They'd even knicked some of the paint off the stiles.
Once more, bashed the living room shutters.
🧵 (9) still tw
We'd requested to be moved, since these terrorising kids' parents seem out of the loop or cannot control their offspring... (yes, i hated most kids b4, now hate is a dot far behind me).
But it may take...up to 18 MONTHS...
despite all the paperwork etc !
We'd requested to be moved, since these terrorising kids' parents seem out of the loop or cannot control their offspring... (yes, i hated most kids b4, now hate is a dot far behind me).
But it may take...up to 18 MONTHS...
despite all the paperwork etc !
November 10, 2025 at 11:07 AM
🧵 (9) still tw
We'd requested to be moved, since these terrorising kids' parents seem out of the loop or cannot control their offspring... (yes, i hated most kids b4, now hate is a dot far behind me).
But it may take...up to 18 MONTHS...
despite all the paperwork etc !
We'd requested to be moved, since these terrorising kids' parents seem out of the loop or cannot control their offspring... (yes, i hated most kids b4, now hate is a dot far behind me).
But it may take...up to 18 MONTHS...
despite all the paperwork etc !
🧵 part 8, yes TW
1 of them thought putting a mask on would be enough not to be recognized, like... seriously ??? we know you & have you on vid & pics.
AND our building has video surveillance, just that in france, housing company cannot look, only the cops, in investigation...
1 of them thought putting a mask on would be enough not to be recognized, like... seriously ??? we know you & have you on vid & pics.
AND our building has video surveillance, just that in france, housing company cannot look, only the cops, in investigation...
November 10, 2025 at 11:03 AM
🧵 part 8, yes TW
1 of them thought putting a mask on would be enough not to be recognized, like... seriously ??? we know you & have you on vid & pics.
AND our building has video surveillance, just that in france, housing company cannot look, only the cops, in investigation...
1 of them thought putting a mask on would be enough not to be recognized, like... seriously ??? we know you & have you on vid & pics.
AND our building has video surveillance, just that in france, housing company cannot look, only the cops, in investigation...
7 of 🧵 Tw's
After that, we decided enough was enough, no more nice ppl giving youth a 2nd chance. We didn't involve the parents around anymore, called the cops & also had to make an appointment, filing an official complaint VS X as we don't know their names or anything.
After that, we decided enough was enough, no more nice ppl giving youth a 2nd chance. We didn't involve the parents around anymore, called the cops & also had to make an appointment, filing an official complaint VS X as we don't know their names or anything.
November 10, 2025 at 11:03 AM
7 of 🧵 Tw's
After that, we decided enough was enough, no more nice ppl giving youth a 2nd chance. We didn't involve the parents around anymore, called the cops & also had to make an appointment, filing an official complaint VS X as we don't know their names or anything.
After that, we decided enough was enough, no more nice ppl giving youth a 2nd chance. We didn't involve the parents around anymore, called the cops & also had to make an appointment, filing an official complaint VS X as we don't know their names or anything.
(6) in 🧵 of my news & Tw's
Indeed, they continue to roam w/ the gang, still attacking ppl & us.
1st return early September, after their summer vacation.
Threw a 12 KG (26.4 lb) ROCK at our front door, leaving it there so we'd trip over it upon exiting... luckily we saw it when we oppened.
Indeed, they continue to roam w/ the gang, still attacking ppl & us.
1st return early September, after their summer vacation.
Threw a 12 KG (26.4 lb) ROCK at our front door, leaving it there so we'd trip over it upon exiting... luckily we saw it when we oppened.
November 10, 2025 at 10:59 AM
(6) in 🧵 of my news & Tw's
Indeed, they continue to roam w/ the gang, still attacking ppl & us.
1st return early September, after their summer vacation.
Threw a 12 KG (26.4 lb) ROCK at our front door, leaving it there so we'd trip over it upon exiting... luckily we saw it when we oppened.
Indeed, they continue to roam w/ the gang, still attacking ppl & us.
1st return early September, after their summer vacation.
Threw a 12 KG (26.4 lb) ROCK at our front door, leaving it there so we'd trip over it upon exiting... luckily we saw it when we oppened.