I started hrt today. Such a bittersweet experience.

I hope one day I get to show everyone I miss just how far I’ve come.

I just wanna say…

✨gender affirming boobie pain✨

That’s all, I’m gonna go back to being a broody bitch now.

I’m terrible at updates, and the chaos the past two weeks has been… oough.

Anyways here are some really simple dwarf quarrelers I’m doing for an escalation league. WIP today, good photo when they’re done by Saturday, pinky promise.

I surrender. This, I intend to be my last opportunity. I will explain myself earnestly and hope for the best, and to preserve some measure of a friendship I care for dearly. I’ll make any concession you ask of me without complaint. I just ask that when you are able, to please speak with me.

Going into the new year, my only resolution is to be gentler with myself. I let life, expectations of both myself and others, failures, hell even poor luck become to person, to wear me down too much. Healing only comes with patience, and a patient mind is a resilient one.

That and paint minis. <3

Took me a little longer to get this posted than I intended. Lol

Anywho, speedpainted Primaris Eliminator. Needs some touch ups, but this took me an hour and seven minutes from primer to “finished” product.

2. Today has been… oddly cathartic. I lost my dearest friend a year and a half ago or so, and for a long time I could only see my own faults and failures. I felt as if I had pushed her away, hurt her, that I had somehow been responsible for destroying the strongest relationship I had with anyone.

1. I will be posting new minis work today. Since I haven’t posted any of my work here before, here’s an example for anyone interested. This is probably my single best work, and was done as a gift for a friend in early 2033.

Expect to see a new model today.

So former president Jimmy Carter has passed. It’s likely for fed workers there will be a holiday for his funeral. If you’d like to honor this truly humble man on that day, I’d urge everyone to look for volunteer opportunities in your community. He’d truly love that.

Fair Winds and Following Seas.

I lied! I’m bored so still posting.

If you like music that gives your brain the good chemicals, check out Good Tiger’s album “Raised in a Doomsday Cult.”

Personal favorite tracks are 1252, Redshift, Grow.Smile.Accept, and If You Weren’t My Son I’d hug You.

Alright, last thing I’m posting for a bit.

I’ve had some absolutely atrocious mental health struggles this past year. If anyone has OCPD, and feels comfortable talking about their struggles, or has helpful resources I would appreciate it a lot. ❤️

Drum Topper I got from Static Dress yesterday at The Tabernacle. Underoath was awesome!

I was a little disappointed with I Am Legend though. Their guitarists are super technical, but I guess early ‘00 metal has never really been my taste.

Fun show overall though!

This is my personal account. My name is Maddie/Madds, I’m a tabletop gamer and miniature artist and generally just a social hobbyist.

I’ll have a separate account for my projects I’ll put up at some point. Anyways, if you like art of any kind, alt/indie music, or horror come say hi. ^^