I just want the damn truth. I want to know just how much of my life was a lie. How much you changed just because you wanted me to think like you. How much different I would’ve been if I wasn’t constantly sympathizing you. How some relationships would’ve changed.

The problem with my memory is that I can’t live out the scene in my head where I hear the voice tones, feel the emotions, and see it happen in sequence. This has me second guessing every interaction I’ve ever had. I was just a kid. You used and manipulated me every chance you needed to.

And every person that wants to say she did her best with what she had, needs to pump the brakes a bit. She didn’t need to lie to me nor steal from me as a child. I can not wait for the future at this point

He taught me to take care of people and always do my best work with the best effort. I may never be the best, make the most money, or say the right thing but I know for a fact I will also work my butt off and do what is right for people.

The day after he gave them to me, after driving to a different city and back, and after serving my kids dinner. I am not be in business anymore or work like I used to, but I will always go above and beyond on my craft. I know my grandfather is smiling down on me and seeing my effort

As I closed down my pro shop back in June and just ran out of some parts. Being who I am and doing what my grandfather taught me, I drove two hours today to a buddy who runs a shop to buy those pieces so I could do these for my old customer. I finished both balls today.