@thedarkzephyrus.bsky.social
Budding Youtuber, Streamer, and VOA. Also, resetting passwords for a living. Yea, I'm that cool.
I know what I want, but finding it is difficult. Wish I could even be turned down at this point. Just getting ignored entirely is a whole other level of lonely.
December 28, 2025 at 5:58 AM
I know what I want, but finding it is difficult. Wish I could even be turned down at this point. Just getting ignored entirely is a whole other level of lonely.
You won't read this, but I want you to know, you've destroyed part of me. You didn't even talk to me, just left and now I don't want to be hurt again for trusting someone.
Just as I am the villain in your story, you are the wicked villain in mine. I curse you for what you've done to me.
Just as I am the villain in your story, you are the wicked villain in mine. I curse you for what you've done to me.
December 23, 2025 at 12:37 PM
You won't read this, but I want you to know, you've destroyed part of me. You didn't even talk to me, just left and now I don't want to be hurt again for trusting someone.
Just as I am the villain in your story, you are the wicked villain in mine. I curse you for what you've done to me.
Just as I am the villain in your story, you are the wicked villain in mine. I curse you for what you've done to me.
Wish I had more good times. Hard to pull myself out of the funk I've been in. Sleep just feels so nice. But, I know that's not the best thing to do. Looking forward at what I can do to make things better.
December 23, 2025 at 1:30 AM
Wish I had more good times. Hard to pull myself out of the funk I've been in. Sleep just feels so nice. But, I know that's not the best thing to do. Looking forward at what I can do to make things better.
It's very dangerous to dream because the world is so limited. Not limited in reality, but limited in society. There are so many artificial barriers and obstacles that it can be overwhelming or impossible even to change your fate.
December 20, 2025 at 7:19 PM
It's very dangerous to dream because the world is so limited. Not limited in reality, but limited in society. There are so many artificial barriers and obstacles that it can be overwhelming or impossible even to change your fate.
Anxiety (what else is new) and general not wanting to do anything but distract myself and sleep. Hard to force myself to do anything else. Hopefully, cheaper insurance next year will mean I can see my dr and therapist more regularly.
December 10, 2025 at 4:07 AM
Anxiety (what else is new) and general not wanting to do anything but distract myself and sleep. Hard to force myself to do anything else. Hopefully, cheaper insurance next year will mean I can see my dr and therapist more regularly.
The dichotomy of accounts with "men, don't you dare try to talk to me" to "need a bf who is obsessed with only me forever and ever* is really giving me whiplash. I know both are possible to see, but c'mon algorithm. Show me just the relevant shit!
December 6, 2025 at 3:17 AM
The dichotomy of accounts with "men, don't you dare try to talk to me" to "need a bf who is obsessed with only me forever and ever* is really giving me whiplash. I know both are possible to see, but c'mon algorithm. Show me just the relevant shit!
Well, next year is almost guaranteed be different, for better or worse.
December 3, 2025 at 5:07 PM
Well, next year is almost guaranteed be different, for better or worse.
Damn. Didn't know I listened to Golden so much lol
December 3, 2025 at 2:28 PM
Damn. Didn't know I listened to Golden so much lol
I know I'm not good enough. But, it's still hard when someone says it out loud.
December 2, 2025 at 3:58 AM
I know I'm not good enough. But, it's still hard when someone says it out loud.
When you think you're special.... then someone reminds you you're not.
November 30, 2025 at 3:15 AM
When you think you're special.... then someone reminds you you're not.
I just had a terrible realization. Everyone I used to feel comfortable singing around is gone... Holy fuck. I... i'm not ok thinking about that... like, legit, I'm upset now.
November 29, 2025 at 2:51 AM
I just had a terrible realization. Everyone I used to feel comfortable singing around is gone... Holy fuck. I... i'm not ok thinking about that... like, legit, I'm upset now.
I don't understand why they got so mad. But, I stopped when they told me to. So I asked a friend about it. And because I asked that friend, they all hate me. Wtf. Why is not understanding, but trying to, seen as such a terrible crime? Apparently I'm not supposed to try. Just stay ignorant.
November 25, 2025 at 3:43 AM
I don't understand why they got so mad. But, I stopped when they told me to. So I asked a friend about it. And because I asked that friend, they all hate me. Wtf. Why is not understanding, but trying to, seen as such a terrible crime? Apparently I'm not supposed to try. Just stay ignorant.
End of the weekend. Quiet, got lots of rain, was really calm. But lonely now. Just like I have been. Fuck, hate having no main friend group. I miss talking to ppl and feeling wanted.
November 24, 2025 at 5:38 AM
End of the weekend. Quiet, got lots of rain, was really calm. But lonely now. Just like I have been. Fuck, hate having no main friend group. I miss talking to ppl and feeling wanted.
Finally, rain for several days at this point. Need more of this!!
November 20, 2025 at 2:38 PM
Finally, rain for several days at this point. Need more of this!!
It's finally cool outside. Glad I can enjoy the fresh air more. Been a long weekend. And yea, I'm lonely. And yea, I'm still angry. But with time comes pushing onward and hopefully some day, I'll replace them, like the hollow friends they turned out to be. I do miss the one who didn't hate me, tho.
November 17, 2025 at 5:40 AM
It's finally cool outside. Glad I can enjoy the fresh air more. Been a long weekend. And yea, I'm lonely. And yea, I'm still angry. But with time comes pushing onward and hopefully some day, I'll replace them, like the hollow friends they turned out to be. I do miss the one who didn't hate me, tho.
Enjoying the weather again. This time, in a park.
November 15, 2025 at 11:34 PM
Enjoying the weather again. This time, in a park.
Also, if I had said that to you? Would we have laughed it off? If so, WHY IS THAT OK BUT SAYING IT TO THEM ISN'T? And if you wouldn't have laughed it off, were we not that good a friends that we can joke like that? And if not, then I'm sorry for thinking we were.
November 14, 2025 at 4:14 PM
Also, if I had said that to you? Would we have laughed it off? If so, WHY IS THAT OK BUT SAYING IT TO THEM ISN'T? And if you wouldn't have laughed it off, were we not that good a friends that we can joke like that? And if not, then I'm sorry for thinking we were.
I didn't do anything to anyone else. First, I immediately apologized to them. Then, a week and change later, I asked someone else IF i had told them the same thing, and I asked why would they have this kind of negative reaction.
But, you'd know this if you had JUST FUCKING TALKED TO ME!!!
But, you'd know this if you had JUST FUCKING TALKED TO ME!!!
November 14, 2025 at 4:09 PM
I didn't do anything to anyone else. First, I immediately apologized to them. Then, a week and change later, I asked someone else IF i had told them the same thing, and I asked why would they have this kind of negative reaction.
But, you'd know this if you had JUST FUCKING TALKED TO ME!!!
But, you'd know this if you had JUST FUCKING TALKED TO ME!!!
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October 27, 2025 at 12:59 AM
Long day. Alot of mental stress and anxiety. Hopefully, tomorrow is better.
October 26, 2025 at 5:08 AM
Long day. Alot of mental stress and anxiety. Hopefully, tomorrow is better.
I know I feel like lonely mostly because of me. I nitpick too much, I try to control alot, I don't let things go. It sucks and I'm not sure how to fix it. I'm trying to learn how to be better, but when one mistake destroys so much, how am I supposed to learn?
October 25, 2025 at 6:43 AM
I know I feel like lonely mostly because of me. I nitpick too much, I try to control alot, I don't let things go. It sucks and I'm not sure how to fix it. I'm trying to learn how to be better, but when one mistake destroys so much, how am I supposed to learn?
That was so much fun :D thank you so much Midge, Cub and Yomiko for letting me join. I sincerely appreciate it. Hopefully we can do it again soon!!!
October 23, 2025 at 6:19 AM
That was so much fun :D thank you so much Midge, Cub and Yomiko for letting me join. I sincerely appreciate it. Hopefully we can do it again soon!!!
Apologies for being so weak. Saw my old friend group and that kinda made me spiral a bit. I didn't linger too long, but it definitely tempered my excitement. I'll try to be better next time. Thanks to those who came out. Love ya'll.
October 21, 2025 at 5:10 AM
Apologies for being so weak. Saw my old friend group and that kinda made me spiral a bit. I didn't linger too long, but it definitely tempered my excitement. I'll try to be better next time. Thanks to those who came out. Love ya'll.
Had a wonderful time at uWucon hanging out with my friend Kyle and got this cute little guy. Nice to have it so close to home, but felt like it was packed with vendors so might need more room for next year.
October 19, 2025 at 8:02 PM
Had a wonderful time at uWucon hanging out with my friend Kyle and got this cute little guy. Nice to have it so close to home, but felt like it was packed with vendors so might need more room for next year.
I feel a bit better atm. Like, I'm finding a few small things that bring me happiness, without strings attached or expectation.
October 18, 2025 at 5:44 AM
I feel a bit better atm. Like, I'm finding a few small things that bring me happiness, without strings attached or expectation.