This isn't to discredit anyone who had been kind to me or made effort to connect with me. Rather a collective bad experience I've had along the way while being active in THAT fandom that are, funny enough, not coming from antis and instead ppl who have followed my works and contents smh.

They are older and more experienced in fandoms, that's why I think they could sorta see all this coming that I don't belong there, same as back then, the friction I had 2 years ago for a ship I really love. And that I should've just stick to the place where I am welcomed and appreciated.

Bc I feel like all I did is provide but never getting anything back, save for 1 fanart of my fic that I was given as a presence.
After posting all my HCs just for the sake of timestamp and to stake that they're mine before someone else does, I'm done with it. I should listen to my besties indeed

Makes me regret investing so much time in THIS fandom and back then lost a lot of my jjk followers only to feel like this at the end. I actually thought back then this will be a good place to dock and retire peacefully for my fandom life when I don't hafta see any drama. But I was completely wrong

Yes, there were bad frictions with some mutuals too, or some from the same community. But only one of them was quite hurtful, unlike with THIS fandom. Makes me remember why while active in JJK for 2.5 years, I only took 1 week hiatus while in THIS fandom I took abt 3 hiatus in the span of 6 months

me are my 2 besties from jjk, who aren't even in THIS fandom but nvr stop supporting me or treating me as if I'm so disposable, insignificant, and perhaps even embarrassing to be associated with. At least in jjk, bad experience I had were mostly from antis, so I can easily sweep it under the rug

to hype up any new artists by rt-ing their works to my quite substantial platform, only to feel like shit at the end. I just can't trust anyone anymore and it hurts bc these bad experience and feelings were subjected from moots and followers. In the end, the ones I can always trust to nvr disappoint

Like, I didn't even like him till I decided to read the manga. Face card-wise, I can tell 2 jjk characters whose face are more of my type, and they don't include Go-sensei.

do business, some successful marketed og manga/dj were originally published from pxv and let's NEVER FORGET how in some doujinshi events, uke!Yuji even had his own section like this is serious business. At least those covert fans has some divine taste 😆