Kind of annoying that the fact Im getting help for anxiety is giving me anxiety but hEY 😫 whatever at least I didn't throw up or pace around nervously

So hopefully, this won't be too stressful of a thing. The fact Im actually accepting the fact that I need help is a huge development tho but god damn this anxiety is making me throw up sometimes multiple times a day anx close family are getting worried & even noticing. 😫😔

Minutes. But the fact that he told me that according to my LAST bloos test I was low on D vitamin, iron and blood. And then kept asking me if I was taking iron suppliments. No??? I wasnt told you guys were gonn call me wtf 😭 told me my fainting might be from lack of blood but also lack of sleep

if I do get the the hobbit extended editions for christmas we could watch it. Like I honestly did a double take. I still dont expect her to commit, but hey, she has surprised me before and the fact that she DOES try is why I love her so much. But she was raised like a single child so she's very

sort of watched things she enjoys and I just sort of watches what ever SHR wants. Even trying to get her into things I enjoy is like pulling teeth with nothing but your fingers. And we leave things unfinished. Castlevania, transformers shows, movies. I was honestly surprised when she said that

Now I come home from work, eat food, hang out with my best friend who's basically my soulmate, shower, get in bed, and we either RP on discord or hang out. But there's nothing waiting for me, no DM, no tagged posts, or anything. I love my bestie but she has always been very private and

There were three of us at a point and it was honestly the most fun I've had in a fandom ever, and I feel bad for missing it. I almost yearn for those simple pleasures of just pure JOY and fun we had. And she truly was the heart of the group bc the moment she left it's never been the same.

I miss her so much but I know she wouldn't want me to lose interest in things or worry about such small things, I have fandom friends that I enjoy being around but I also miss just..the excitement of things. The DMs and all the creative stuff we did.

And the worst part is that I WANT TO BE CREATIVE but fandom has sort of evolved since then and bc I dont draw except traditionally and my writing is mostly beta-writing and correcting stuff or adding onto things I'm scared of being thought as a leech or smth. Things just were easier I guess?

that I immediately throw away, havent written a single thing since then. To a point that even my Dragon age characters and other OCs dont even have files where I can keep up with their lore and backstories and everything else which is why I keep forgetting the smallest details to things

Such bittersweet memories and they dont lie when they say you never truly stop grieving a person. It just kind of slows down until the smallest of things remind you of them and it hits you again. Maybe I would still be drawing and writing if she were still alive. I havent gone past tiny sketches

Writing posts and ideas knowing that that one friend will see it and immediately come to you and add onto it and even do art and we'd write fanfictions which then led to her writing her own book which she never got to finish...

😂😂 That look on his face i nthat screenshot like dAMN this dude KNOWS hes hot too 🤌

👀👀 god dAMN he looks nice 10/10 would smash