Everything really is a joke, just existing and "being" is a joke and it's not a funny one either. I need someone to kill me in my sleep just to spare me from having to live another day feeling like this

And ever since "that" incident, I've been slowly falling out of love of something and honestly I don't think I can get into human beings in general anymore and really am just at odds with myself. I want to love it, but I also don't have the strength/drive to devote myself into something anymore

no taiga drama to be invested in etc, there really is nothing interesting at all... I'm probably gonna enter the new year stuck in perpetual weekly hollow depression hell, since the only thing going on is work and even that's uncertain lol

There's literally nothing to look forward to these days... sighs...

Timelapse. It's been 3 years since the last episode 🥺 This might also be my last Heike Monogatari illustration for the year. To think that I've been drawing fanarts for a whole 3 years already... (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)

Tfw you're injured and stuck in enemy territory but your captor just happens to be just some guy who had experienced the death of a loved one and can't bear to see you like this because it reminds him of his poor sickly wife, kinda... yeah...

He was originally just meant to be some normal guy you can find around at Kamakura (with an average build and a normal height) but after a friend said "what if he's a large man? 👁️👁️" I thought that would add to his scary/intimidation factor and that's how he end up being as beeg as he is today 🥹