Mario of course, somewhere. I don't know if ultimately I will have to grieve some aspect of it to pound it into a shape acceptable to the real world but God I feel a thousand bright filaments stretched between every node pulsing with data & if I could just give the reader that sensation

The Wind in the Willows
Thus Spoke Rohan Kishibe
Disco Elysium
Georges Luis Borges
Simone Weil
Majora's Mask
Psyduck
Akira
Blade Runner
Final Fantasy IX
Junji Ito
HP Lovecraft
The King in Yellow
C.S. Lewis
H.G. Wells
Peter Pan
Lemurs
Stinging nettles
Rousseau
Non hierarchal branching attention

I don't want a swooping jackalope to hit my car windscreen at night. Absolute nightmare fuel

- The Boots sushi

Actually honestly that sounds pretty interesting I would probably dig it

You must understand I'd be out ghost hunting in a flash if I thought there was even the slightest prospect of experiencing something supernatural & not just standing in the dark in the cellar of a listed building listening to radio static with a guy called Richard

He peered into the mysteries of gender too long & it turned him into Wario Jacob Rees Mogg

Oh, stop by & say hi if you have a minute!

Thanks for being so kind, Kevin

Writing is an essential part of the thinking process, I think

It might be the toughest thing, staying present with unpleasant feelings & experiences. Being alive while being someone who feels & notices stuff is intense. You are doing so great. I try to hunt for meaning & limit my exposure to despair. & escape now means a good book!

Depends on the length of the game, but if you can do it by mutual consent, sure. As an individual if I'm personally not enjoying a game I will always stick around to the end for the sake of everyone else, & as a reviewer I finish games because I need to, but if everyone is bored, bail

Congratulations. Thank you for sharing. It's hard & the reasons for wanting relief & escape don't go away, but it can be the beginning of starting to face them. But gosh as humans we need those support networks.

Sorry you're feeling down. I am feeling much the same way & I realise that might come off as unhelpful but it's intended as solidarity. I know life has felt meaningful & fun at points so I'm hoping we can get back there

Thank you to both of you

Maybe you talk to someone & you just rescue them from the intensity of their thoughts & feelings for half an hour. Maybe you prevented a spiral, a bigger dip, albeit briefly. Maybe stuff you say or do goes in deep & the change comes to your heart later, maybe months, years later

Sometimes stuff folks have said & done when I've been at my lowest might not have seemed to have helped in the moment, but it follows me for years after, as evidence that people are kind & we're not totally alone. & 'help' can look like distracting someone, slowing a spiral, unglamorous stuff