and often the wellness language & culture around it is so twee. i'm sure it's probably just some inner brokenness of mine but all these words like nourish that come with it ... it feels like a setup to undermine the actual concepts

the bit in the book that reminded me is about 'self care' which always gives me the ick. it's packaged both as entitled and a marketing capitalist tool

but it does that thing - so far at least - that no lost causes just reminded me of, where it packages up all this stuff along with collective care that makes it seem so naive and foolish. like you can't be kind without flowy tunics, poetry, and line dancing

but i've got better at that. there is no zero sum game even though it feels like there is this acceptable packaging for trauma to fit in.

i'm still working out my relationship with storytelling, and what that means for my place in the world

i still have a bit of a hard time sometimes reading other people's experiences when their feelings are so like my own. and that's hard to talk about given i know it must make me sound like such an ass

i'm addicted to purpose as much as the next person but it's all so fake. nothing is casual anymore, nothing just 'is' and i'm drowning in it