I hope it's just a mental block or if not it works itself out with time

that is so. depressing. that would ruin my day and probably my week. and it would stick with me for a long time ; ;

maybe one day I will 😭

sometimes I just think I shouldn't draw fan art anymore because it just gives me so much grief

REAL!!!!!!!!!
the backhanded "compliments" 😭 I've gotten "I don't like or see this character trans but I like your art" more times than I'd like sdkjghsdkgh thEN WHY ARE YOU HERE

because I always have to share the space with cis depictions, and cis depictions are always inevitably centered. because fandom is cisnormative

I just want a space where that character is trans and only trans. where I can just talk about a character and the assumption is that they're trans. I really don't want to have to share the space with cis depictions. I'm sorry

when you draw and interact with trans works for this long you will notice patterns. a lot is in what people don't say. a lot is in people's actions. transphobia in fandom is very real

one of my trans man friends was venting his frustrations to me on how fandom suddenly won't find characters attractive anymore when they're trans. and I was like. oh okay it's not just me who thought this. I'm not crazy. because it feels like the big unspoken words in fandom

vanitas is so touch starved that holding ven's hand makes him wet