i still used the same hair treatment and still occassionally showered with hot water before i took my new meds.... seems like it was caused by stress all along

im just tired. everytime i want to change my fate, theres always something in my way preventing me from achieving my goals

there sure are progress and achievements in the past 2 years, but it's a v slow progress and not some big life-changing events

i dont understand these people's obsession with protecting the image of the company...

despite everything, i will stay kind. eventho i know that my kindness will be taken advantage of by the wrong people someday, at least i know my boundaries now

sometimes i hate myself everytime i remember how nice i was to people who dont even give af about me

true. they cant stay relying on the fans hype bc after all, we still have less power than the company

i cant say much bc got into stars only after tmps debuted, but already know the existence of jp boys since 2020. i do feel like the boys arent advertised/promoted enough since then. i only discovered them from yt fan clips

even if one day they all no longer streaming anymore, their story still can be continued in other form of media. manga, drama cd, animation, voice acting opportunity if they get to keep their ip without graduation

but again, its all just a wishful thinking

- brand collabs
- irasutoya collab
- holostars hologra.....
- not content but i wish the boys will get the opportunity to be voice actors for games or animations someday

nooooooo....