Absolutely! Thank you!

I held her and cried deep tears of sorrow, pain, and release for several minutes.

I felt shifts inside. My body felt calmer.

Last night, I slept really well.

Our emotions just want to be felt. Processed.

Even the ones from our earliest days, who've been stuck for decades.

Thanks and totally agree! For me, healing is body and grief work...and releasing things! I'm an easy crier so that helps me.

OMG! Yes! The other day when I was doing it and a lot was coming up for me, some of those parts screamed at my parents:

"You never gave me what I needed."

When I said it out loud, that's when the tears flowed.

Thank you! Perfect timings as I'm starting experimenting naming things out loud!

Thank you so much. It's been a hard road.

I've also been too co-dependent/enmeshed with him, more than I realized. Despite my own anxieties and fears, I've been able to hold the line at offering to support him and leaving it up to him what he needs. Supporting, without enabling.

Three different parts of me, different ages, all from specific painful experiences.

They spoke their truth to my parents. Raging and sobbing. I remembered how cruel they sometimes were. I grieved.

It was cathartic. I felt so calm and relaxed afterwards.

This is healing. 3/3

Later on last night I decided to meditate. Bam, did that all hit me!

My body was jerking a lot and I was grunting. Then, the words my inner parts (IFS) were saying came out of my mouth:

"You never gave me what I needed!" That HIT hard!

2/3

thank you!

OMG Yes! Insidious is such a good word for it! I see now she did far more damage than my dad did to me.

Thanks, healing has been so great for me!

Thanks for all that! It's super helpful. Yeah, that is what it feels like. The "mom disgust" face fits with the general pattern is as I've been healing I'm realizing how much she harmed me too. Before this, I knew she wasn't a great mom, but my focus was on my dad's more obvious violence.