I am lost without you grandpa. I didn’t realize how much I needed your love, until it was gone. And god I hope I never took it for granted. I love you so much and you live on forever in the hearts of the people you touched.

I think I’ll call grandma today.

I know she misses you too.

I wish I could call you back. Now. But I know you’d want me to stay here, live my life fully, love and experience things the way you did. I try. But without your lessons, it’s been hard.

I try to remember the words, the life tools you taught me. But they’re slipping away, just like you did.

And I’m pained by the thought that I will never get to call him back again.

This morning I listened to it, and my thought was, please let me join you.

The call I want to make… would put me at your side once more. Just like when I was 8, and so excited to have a grandpa I could cherish.