- to pretend on my birthday. I really don't. It seems sad, and I guess it is, but I just don't want to deal with anyone that day. I want to be left alone. Forgotten and an afterthought like i usually am. I can't wait for it to be over

- I want to do to celebrate because it's such a milestone, but honestly, I don't want to celebrate it. I don't want to deal with people talking to me about it. I would rather just let it pass like a regular day. I don't want people talking to me about it. I want to be left alone. I just don't want -

-mentally.. I am not doing physically well as I am wasting away from lack of funds and anxiety. I just feel hopeless and so so tired... I want to rest but never wake up. This year has really crushed my spirit. I truly feel defeated and questioning what the point of anything is

-but I literally have no one else to vent to. I feel utterly alone and that I don't matter. Thar I wasn't meant for this world and I was a mistake. That all my problems would be gone if I just didn't exist anymore. I am really feeling it. It's scary but feels inevitable. I am really struggling

I'm turning 30 this month! Have been stressing about turning 30 since I turned 29 last year.. Hoping 30 is filled with joy and peace for you! I keep hearing that 30s is the best decade, so I'm cautiously optimistic!

-a moment to talk into the void. To feel a semblance of being seen and heard until the cringe and shame set in. But that is the cycle of posting on the internet. Of being vulnerable. But as always, I keep pushing through because the alternative is bleak

I feel like outbursts like this will be commonplace, so be prepared for that.. I'm going to continue to struggle and be unhappy before I am content with my life again. It's a process, I'm not perfect, and I am emotionally volatile. I really wish I could afford therapy, but all I have is this

I don't want to try anymore. It's too hard. There is no joy in it. I want it to end. I just can't keep going. I'm tired. I'm upset, I'm angry. I have nothing to look forward to. All hope is dashed. I'm just over it... I hate my life. This year has taken a toll on me and it's won. I give up

-only and just whatever kind of level of art I want! Sketches to things that fit in a portfolio. I want to write headcanons, fanfiction, reviews, analysis, hot takes and just interact with people without feeling like i am running my portfolio. I want to have fun and connect on the internet again

-case things are "separate but equal" 😬 I can't think of a better way of saying it. I feel like I'm taking the pressure of this space having to be my "serious" art portfolio. It's twitter adjacent so I want to be able to shit post but I miss posting my art so this will be my fandom space. Fanart-

Which isn't social media but making art and continuing to put myself out there! I really am trying to create pockets of the internet where I can curate and cultivate a place for specific practices and act accordingly. I think I have struggled in the past having everything in one place. But in this-

Doing a quick Google search since I have never had polenta, it's seems polenta is made from flint corn and has a subtle floral taste and flakier texture while grits is made from dent corn and has a stronger corn flavor. So take that as you will, but it seems they are comparable to each other

Yeah, i thought it was optional. You could choose one or the other, but apparently not! My grandma usually made me grits and never told me not to use sugar and butter, so I never questioned it!