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after a prolonged, perhaps protracted period of intensity
this was creeping up for a long long time. it started with being in her room: "you make me feel so happy"—i thought, "what?" i felt disconnected.
May 8, 2023 at 12:38 AM
this was creeping up for a long long time. it started with being in her room: "you make me feel so happy"—i thought, "what?" i felt disconnected.
yet, none of these words are accompanied by the felt sense of truth. when something is right, the words land differently. with the weight of truth behind it.
i am utterly confused. i do not know what the truth is. how horrible it is to not feel truth.
i am utterly confused. i do not know what the truth is. how horrible it is to not feel truth.
May 8, 2023 at 12:37 AM
yet, none of these words are accompanied by the felt sense of truth. when something is right, the words land differently. with the weight of truth behind it.
i am utterly confused. i do not know what the truth is. how horrible it is to not feel truth.
i am utterly confused. i do not know what the truth is. how horrible it is to not feel truth.
i'm a little frustrated. was it my own personal shortcoming that things happened this way? why did i let myself be with someone whom i felt lukewarm towards?
May 8, 2023 at 12:36 AM
i'm a little frustrated. was it my own personal shortcoming that things happened this way? why did i let myself be with someone whom i felt lukewarm towards?
what was it between us? when i think back it's hard to think. perhaps the reason is simple: we tried to go as fast as possible, and i didn't listen to my no.
I DIDN'T LISTEN TO MY NO. was that all there was to it?
I DIDN'T LISTEN TO MY NO. was that all there was to it?
May 8, 2023 at 12:33 AM
what was it between us? when i think back it's hard to think. perhaps the reason is simple: we tried to go as fast as possible, and i didn't listen to my no.
I DIDN'T LISTEN TO MY NO. was that all there was to it?
I DIDN'T LISTEN TO MY NO. was that all there was to it?
i am so weak! and i feel a massive knot. what am i confused about? this was exactly what i wanted.
this was precisely what i wanted.
this was precisely what i wanted.
May 8, 2023 at 12:31 AM
i am so weak! and i feel a massive knot. what am i confused about? this was exactly what i wanted.
this was precisely what i wanted.
this was precisely what i wanted.
i thought about other girls. i thought that i wouldn't be devastated if i left her. i thought about telling her that we should break up. but when i talked to her, all of these thoughts i buried from my head. i chose not to see it.
i put it outside of my awareness.
i put it outside of my awareness.
May 8, 2023 at 12:31 AM
i thought about other girls. i thought that i wouldn't be devastated if i left her. i thought about telling her that we should break up. but when i talked to her, all of these thoughts i buried from my head. i chose not to see it.
i put it outside of my awareness.
i put it outside of my awareness.
thinking about all the people in history who have fought for life and death. doctors. workers. carrying the sick in your arms. crossing borders. fighting for food. wartime.
this is something i've never done in my life. i've never had to truly fight, where only one thing matters, not even in love
this is something i've never done in my life. i've never had to truly fight, where only one thing matters, not even in love
May 4, 2023 at 4:26 AM
thinking about all the people in history who have fought for life and death. doctors. workers. carrying the sick in your arms. crossing borders. fighting for food. wartime.
this is something i've never done in my life. i've never had to truly fight, where only one thing matters, not even in love
this is something i've never done in my life. i've never had to truly fight, where only one thing matters, not even in love
no, not just knowledge, but the guts to be able to look the problem into the eye, the courage to believe that he can complete the task at hand, to think that he is completely unprepared and yet bear the responsibility and act.
that is the thrill. he does not know if he will succeed.
that is the thrill. he does not know if he will succeed.
May 4, 2023 at 4:15 AM
no, not just knowledge, but the guts to be able to look the problem into the eye, the courage to believe that he can complete the task at hand, to think that he is completely unprepared and yet bear the responsibility and act.
that is the thrill. he does not know if he will succeed.
that is the thrill. he does not know if he will succeed.
this book, "A Country Doctor's Notebook", is thrilling because the young, freshly-graduated doctor is operating at the bleeding edge of his competency. sent to the countryside to serve, in a strange place, with no seniors or textbooks to consult, each case like an abrupt examination of knowledge
May 4, 2023 at 4:13 AM
this book, "A Country Doctor's Notebook", is thrilling because the young, freshly-graduated doctor is operating at the bleeding edge of his competency. sent to the countryside to serve, in a strange place, with no seniors or textbooks to consult, each case like an abrupt examination of knowledge
no amount of theory can sufficiently prepare you for bloods and guts, life-and-death.
May 4, 2023 at 3:41 AM
no amount of theory can sufficiently prepare you for bloods and guts, life-and-death.
being dropped down into the battleground of reality (with dark red gushing out, her breath slowing) when all you've ever seen is years worth of theory (as all the facts fly through your head, frantically trying to search for the one thing that might, god forbid, save her)
May 4, 2023 at 3:41 AM
being dropped down into the battleground of reality (with dark red gushing out, her breath slowing) when all you've ever seen is years worth of theory (as all the facts fly through your head, frantically trying to search for the one thing that might, god forbid, save her)
oh wow... total korean supermodel! mm... feeling inspired by the bg thick pastel strokes.... well done midjourney
April 15, 2023 at 6:56 PM
oh wow... total korean supermodel! mm... feeling inspired by the bg thick pastel strokes.... well done midjourney
okay im way too pessimistic about this. touch some grass! get in contact with the young ones and your peers. life is good. and i want to get married!!
April 14, 2023 at 5:46 AM
okay im way too pessimistic about this. touch some grass! get in contact with the young ones and your peers. life is good. and i want to get married!!
i want to collaborate with cafes and turn them into little book displays (curation is the most beautiful thing) which would help me with publicity and get my little shop known. cafe-goers like books.... right???
actually maybe not. its all about instagrammability isn't it....
actually maybe not. its all about instagrammability isn't it....
April 13, 2023 at 8:38 PM
i want to collaborate with cafes and turn them into little book displays (curation is the most beautiful thing) which would help me with publicity and get my little shop known. cafe-goers like books.... right???
actually maybe not. its all about instagrammability isn't it....
actually maybe not. its all about instagrammability isn't it....
i am optimistic that there are others! even if its 1 in 200 people that would be interested, thats 3500 people!! fun
April 13, 2023 at 8:37 PM
i am optimistic that there are others! even if its 1 in 200 people that would be interested, thats 3500 people!! fun
anyway... im thinking about this because im getting ready to launch my online second hand bookstore (i'm still thinking about the name) and cultivate a circle of nerds who love ideas and love reading and love cafes. it will be a chic pretentious place of intellectual bullshits
April 13, 2023 at 8:35 PM
anyway... im thinking about this because im getting ready to launch my online second hand bookstore (i'm still thinking about the name) and cultivate a circle of nerds who love ideas and love reading and love cafes. it will be a chic pretentious place of intellectual bullshits
wouldn't it be more fun to dissociate with your exercise in taste of fragrance and food and so on?
well, there is no capacity to: living a life set out by others robs you of your ability to discover yourself bc who you are will be punished. deep despair!
well, there is no capacity to: living a life set out by others robs you of your ability to discover yourself bc who you are will be punished. deep despair!
April 13, 2023 at 8:34 PM
wouldn't it be more fun to dissociate with your exercise in taste of fragrance and food and so on?
well, there is no capacity to: living a life set out by others robs you of your ability to discover yourself bc who you are will be punished. deep despair!
well, there is no capacity to: living a life set out by others robs you of your ability to discover yourself bc who you are will be punished. deep despair!
i can't help but feel that 90%+ of everyone in hong kong is so depressed and dejected.... the only thing that anyone does on the MTR is to play video games and watch the latest dramas (even office workers and kids and aunties)...
connaiseurs in self-medicating with the finest dissociative portals
connaiseurs in self-medicating with the finest dissociative portals
April 13, 2023 at 8:31 PM
i can't help but feel that 90%+ of everyone in hong kong is so depressed and dejected.... the only thing that anyone does on the MTR is to play video games and watch the latest dramas (even office workers and kids and aunties)...
connaiseurs in self-medicating with the finest dissociative portals
connaiseurs in self-medicating with the finest dissociative portals