This cycle isn’t good for me anymore. My life is miserable. I’m 32 and have nothing to show for my efforts. I need to get a fucking life outside of vtubing.

I don’t want to give up on vtubing. If I do, I’ll feel like a failure. But I can’t do it anymore. Not right now.

I feel like if I were to stop suddenly, no one would notice and no one would care. Life would continue to move on without me, and it would be like I never made an impact.

I want to make an impact. But I’m not in a position in my life where I’m able to do anything.

It just sucks, because…I feel like vtubing is one of the few things I could really be good at. But I’m not at a point in my life where I can do it sustainably. And I haven’t been for years.

It makes me feel like a failure.

Perfectionism. Making horrible mistakes. Life getting in the way. It feels like no matter what, I choose to get in my own way, and it sucks.

I’ve had my fun with vtubing. At points like these, however…I feel as if I’m not meant to be a vtuber.

And if I stopped now I doubt anyone would notice or care

At this point it’s foolish to think I can even try

Maybe this just isn’t meant to be

Life sucks right now and it’s sucked for a while

As much as I want to keep doing this, every time I try to I get pulled out of it by the soul crushing reality that is my life

I’m sorry for sad posting but I’m having a really tough time today

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