i know this isnt good for anyone

it did, fuck you stop being correct

not really, its actively getting worse rn

yeah

that by posting this i only make everyone else feel worse and nothing gets done, i dont feel better i just feel the same as i did before

also some other shit

pretend that it isnt happening or just fucking scream
"youre just stuck in a victim mentality, you have to find a way out" show me the fucking light then, jesus, no one can save me, i dont trust doctors or therapists or anyone of the sort, i just wanna sleep, cause this agony's contagious, i know-

behind while everyone around me does better, i have no irl interaction, i barely have online interactions anymore, i have no education or anything thatd make me worth a job or any kind of money, i make plans to go out to do something but when the time comes i sit in fear, unable to do anything but-

i dont think i can last 2 years here, definitely not 4 more

i look dead half the time, i can’t leave this house, i have nowhere to go and i can’t work any kind of job or bring any value to anyone worth enough to let me stay with them

how? i’m gonna be a worthless mess forever, i’m never even slightly going to look like a girl or leave this fucking house, not to mention how in 3 months i’ll probably have no friends left

that’s hard to believe
even if it is true, i can never really be happy anyway, i doubt it’s worth going on

i’m not