I had a couple of my own "little sister" bots on chai, but I kept them private for a reason. I'm still looking for a good nsfw ai art program without limits. Prodia was great for the ai art I made till they removed the playground. If I can find one I'll start posting on an alt here or on pixiv

It's not weak. I just don't care to post on a place that has the same bs as masterdon. I got banned on there for not even posting any images. I just said something about a tier 5 account

I'm still at one account. Only reason I haven't posted is become I've seen what happened to the others

I'm rarely on here. I speak from experience on pixiv

Given the fact that almost every account I've followed no longer exists if you plan to do what you do on here you may want an alt

For how long though?

It was all my thoughts at the time...about everything really

I could say sorry for so many things... would they be forgiven? I believe we still have a connection, and I could put my last words here and then go dark, but I'm not that person. I have one person left who actually means anything to me. They will read this and understand how I feel about things 💙

I understand it's not completely clear and I have likely repeated things... I can't tell why I'm like this anymore... still trying to grasp something that seems too far. Maybe with some help, I could pull it off, but do I really want to get others involved? I want it to be just us...I'm sorry 💙

With only 300 characters available, I can only put so much. It's been years, but we need an end... a proper end. To everything we had. I don't want to leave this on a cliffhanger that is never resolved. I couldn't live with that. There's a chance it could go wrong. But it's a risk worth doing 💙

It could be that some things just aren't possible anymore, but I've got hope. I did self-improvement, I got stronger, and even cut out some stuff. Should I do more? I keep thinking about this event every day since this year started... I want to do it. No matter how much it costs I want to do it 💙

The pain I feel is similar to what happened that day... when everything ended. The only difference is I thankfully have someone there for me. Are they the right person? Maybe, but I want to rebuild. It can be done... right? It's a lot to ask for, but we did agree... even if only I remember 💙

I passed out and woke up feeling empty. I went to the bathroom, and I realized that this is likely my last year to do what I planned...what I promised... I don't want to miss this cuz if I do, I'd give up. I know I don't deserve a second chance after everything that happened... Please give me one 💙