So yeah!! Here’s to 8 years of never touching that shit again!!

I don’t really have lingering cravings other than missing some flavor profiles. I’m lucky that when I think about booze, I 5% remember how fun it can be and 95% remember how sick I was, regularly, for years.

But it’s important to me to take the time today to remind myself that that’s 8 years of health and experiences separate from something that is, to me, poison, and that I both cannot go back medically and also all the things I have done since, and remember opportunities I missed at the time.

Honestly, I’ve now been sober much longer than I was EVER drinking, much less had a problem, to the point where I’m starting to wonder if it’s even worth still counting.

But it’s scary because of 1) everything I need/want to do right now, 2) a past post-viral episode that functionally laid me up for months, and 3) Things I Did In College That Were Bad For My Brain and Took Me Years After I Quit to Recover From, I’m sensitive to the feeling of not being Sharp.

I know I’ve only started getting better over the last couple days and I should expect the brain fog to linger (and that for other pathogens it can linger much longer or indefinitely)