oh i'm so sorry i'll be nicer to the people who want me dead i'm so sorry

Anyway, Lovely Lady RPG. Cool game. Very accurate game. Made me think about this horrible shit again.

I wish this country wasn't like this.

I did eventually get the HRT, but I didn't have any blockers or check ups or blood tests again for years until I got onto the NHS pilot GIC in my area because I just didn't want to talk to this man. I feel so stunted and behind where I feel I could have been because of this gross man.

Then when my hormone levels came back and my Pre-HRT testosterone levels were a bit low, he decided to subject me to a completely invasive and unnecessary genital exam. I had to take the train for a few hours so I could go to a strange man's office and have him inspect my genitals.

My GP practice back where I used to live were fucking useless, would order the wrong blood tests, not do the things this Endocrinologist wanted and it would always lead to emails of him being incredibly horrible and cruel. He would blame me for everything not being perfect, or taking too long.

Then was the Endocrinologist I saw. Yeah this guy was full Gender NKVD. He was cruel. He withheld hormones from me because I'm a fat gross little tranny. His excuse was "oh the pill form might hurt your liver" but he still refused to prescribe the gel alternative until I had my liver checked.

In fact, the psychiatrist I saw for my required diagnosis was incredibly apologetic. Up front he made it clear that the questions weren't okay and made it clear I didn't have to lie simply because "look, you wouldn't be here if you weren't trans". He was genuienly kind.

Since I already had a diagnosis, they skipped the horrible "are you a little freaky freak disgusting pervert" questions and just took over care.

When I did get my initial diagnosis and I did go private, the actual psychiatrist part wasn't even the horrible Gender NKVD LLRPG thing.

FIFA probably get a cartoon bag of money from Netflix, who in turn get something to creatively lie about on their next earnings call.

The only way I could possibly be persuaded this isn’t a disaster is if Sam Altman sent an email saying “by the way we’re not Enron”

Remember time for before the indoor smoking ban in the UK and having been to places where it's still legal. Yes, it really did fucking suck and smelt horrible everywhere.

Maybe I'm being naive here, but there has to be something. There can't just be endless misery forever. We have to believe there's a path forward. Support the Greens, support these legal challenges by groups like The Good Law Project.

Please don't give up.

Things could still go horribly and they might. That being said, there is a chance. For the first time in a while there is a chance.

If we can just push back on this anti-trans stuff. Labour has decided to shit itself and Reform is on the rise, but the Greens are starting to rise as a counter.

Levy wasn't the nightmare we feared. It's not good, but it doesn't propose any regression.

Anti-trans stuff is on a hold mostly rn in the UK while the recent court rulings haven't been given the TERFs what they want and we're awaiting the judgment on the Good Law Project's challenge.

The perfect thing about the lie option is Cole going nuclear with it but you’re always able to walk it back and say “sorry umm just kidding haha” after saying the worst shit

Being in it would be one thing but being so desperate to be relevant that you beg for a role publicly is pathetic.