Oh right. I'm an artist. And a girl.

WHY DON'T I WORK IN IT AT THIS RATE?! I'M IN THE FRIGGIN BIOS AND CMD THAT'S LIKE, BETTER THAN HALF THE PEOPLE WORKING IN IT HELP STUFF, RIGHT?!

Oh no!! 😭 I know that feeling too well. Usually, though, is capturing the way a character looks and not being able to figure out how to replicate it again. 🥲

THIS RENDERING!! It's incredible!!

Thank you!! I cannot wait to have a better sounding stream 😭

But at the end of the day, I AM happy with what I HAVE created. At least I have that.

FELT!! I've had relapses managing my depression because of my feelings about this. If I applied myself better; if I had the same resources and support as my peers; if I was actually shown how to guide myself in life—would I be as far, if not further, than my successful peers are now?