Vlad
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Vlad
@vlad1022.bsky.social
· Jul 3
But ive gotten through everything in my life alone and i know ill get past this too cause i know they do care even if im not feeling it, its just for once i wish someone would sacrifice something for me even as selfish as that is and im not sure if i actually want them too
Ya boi has been given anti-depressants and other medication, lets go maybe they will help with all the shit i suffer from, and now i have like 6 referrals for medical test cause the doctor says im super fucked and we need to make sure im not dying, i could see the worry on his face
October 25, 2025 at 2:23 AM
Ya boi has been given anti-depressants and other medication, lets go maybe they will help with all the shit i suffer from, and now i have like 6 referrals for medical test cause the doctor says im super fucked and we need to make sure im not dying, i could see the worry on his face
Went to the doctors today and was told he is surprised im functioning since all the test show i should be dying or having a stroke and he was fighting the urge to send me straight to the ER and then after nearly 2 hours they let me go and said make sure you take your new medication or youll die.
October 24, 2025 at 6:52 PM
Went to the doctors today and was told he is surprised im functioning since all the test show i should be dying or having a stroke and he was fighting the urge to send me straight to the ER and then after nearly 2 hours they let me go and said make sure you take your new medication or youll die.
Just had one of the best weekends of my life, i got to spend a lot of time with my favorite person in the world and got to see a lot of bands i dont really know with her, and im not sure what i did to deserve her in my life but im grateful shes willing to be my friend even though i know i dont
October 21, 2025 at 7:44 AM
Just had one of the best weekends of my life, i got to spend a lot of time with my favorite person in the world and got to see a lot of bands i dont really know with her, and im not sure what i did to deserve her in my life but im grateful shes willing to be my friend even though i know i dont
“What do you know?! What do you know about me?! This is the kind of man I am! I have no strength, but I want it all. I have no knowledge, but all I do is dream. There's nothing I can do, but I struggle in vain! I hate myself!
October 12, 2025 at 1:28 AM
“What do you know?! What do you know about me?! This is the kind of man I am! I have no strength, but I want it all. I have no knowledge, but all I do is dream. There's nothing I can do, but I struggle in vain! I hate myself!
It was rough. It was so painful. I was so scared. I was so sad. It hurt so much, I thought I’d die. I tried so hard… I tired so hard! I was so desperate, so desperate to make everything right! It’s the truth. I’ve honestly never tried so hard at anything in my life! Because I loved this place…
October 12, 2025 at 1:19 AM
It was rough. It was so painful. I was so scared. I was so sad. It hurt so much, I thought I’d die. I tried so hard… I tired so hard! I was so desperate, so desperate to make everything right! It’s the truth. I’ve honestly never tried so hard at anything in my life! Because I loved this place…
The more time passes the more i feel like im empty inside it, like im surrounded by stars emitting lights and im just an empty void devoid of light and only exist to make everyones light look stronger and take that light from them until they get tired of it and leave. I am such a waste of a life.
October 11, 2025 at 5:28 PM
The more time passes the more i feel like im empty inside it, like im surrounded by stars emitting lights and im just an empty void devoid of light and only exist to make everyones light look stronger and take that light from them until they get tired of it and leave. I am such a waste of a life.
Fuck parts authority why do i have to work all the time
October 7, 2025 at 2:57 PM
Fuck parts authority why do i have to work all the time
Dear World, I am leaving because I am bored. I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool. Good luck.
October 7, 2025 at 5:49 AM
Dear World, I am leaving because I am bored. I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool. Good luck.
The only thing keeping me going is the fact i know im gonna have a great time in vegas next week and the fact i cant access my firearm, i dont get how my life keeps going from the some of the best times of my life to struggling to survive in the span of a few days
October 7, 2025 at 1:32 AM
The only thing keeping me going is the fact i know im gonna have a great time in vegas next week and the fact i cant access my firearm, i dont get how my life keeps going from the some of the best times of my life to struggling to survive in the span of a few days
Spent the day with my friend and it was the best day ive had in a while, my legs are killing me from all the walking and stairs though, but i wouldnt change a single thing about it, love you @skeebles.bsky.social and cant wait for vegas in 11 days
October 5, 2025 at 7:56 AM
Spent the day with my friend and it was the best day ive had in a while, my legs are killing me from all the walking and stairs though, but i wouldnt change a single thing about it, love you @skeebles.bsky.social and cant wait for vegas in 11 days
On my way to long beach 2 hours past the time i had wanted to because my brother asked for me to pick him up after a doctors visit for him to say nvm i dont need a ride anymore, fucking asshole( still love the fucker)
October 2, 2025 at 7:50 PM
On my way to long beach 2 hours past the time i had wanted to because my brother asked for me to pick him up after a doctors visit for him to say nvm i dont need a ride anymore, fucking asshole( still love the fucker)
I sit alone in my own room watching the blood drip from my flesh and i watch the crimson drops fall all holding memories of my life, some are full of happy memories and the darker drops hold the most painful memories as i feel the warm embrace of the angel of death i let out a sigh of relief knowing
October 2, 2025 at 2:53 AM
I sit alone in my own room watching the blood drip from my flesh and i watch the crimson drops fall all holding memories of my life, some are full of happy memories and the darker drops hold the most painful memories as i feel the warm embrace of the angel of death i let out a sigh of relief knowing
To sleep is splendid,To die is better yet, And to never have been born that is the great miracle one could ask for
September 28, 2025 at 6:00 AM
To sleep is splendid,To die is better yet, And to never have been born that is the great miracle one could ask for
When one considers the amount of suffering the sun sets on daily he cannot help but think it had been better if the world were as smooth and lifeless as the moon
September 28, 2025 at 5:59 AM
When one considers the amount of suffering the sun sets on daily he cannot help but think it had been better if the world were as smooth and lifeless as the moon
The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd - The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for
September 28, 2025 at 5:59 AM
The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd - The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for
Life is an intoxication. The only sober man is the melancholiac, who, disenchanted, looks at life, sees it as it really is, and cuts his throat.
September 28, 2025 at 5:57 AM
Life is an intoxication. The only sober man is the melancholiac, who, disenchanted, looks at life, sees it as it really is, and cuts his throat.
But there are no absolutes in human misery and things can always get worse.
September 28, 2025 at 5:56 AM
But there are no absolutes in human misery and things can always get worse.
When all usefulness is over, when one is assured of an unavoidable and imminent death, it is the simplest of human rights to choose a quick and easy death in place of a slow and horrible one.
September 28, 2025 at 5:43 AM
When all usefulness is over, when one is assured of an unavoidable and imminent death, it is the simplest of human rights to choose a quick and easy death in place of a slow and horrible one.
I think im coming to terms with the fact that deep down im just a burden and a waste of space, at this point im only moving forward because i know every step forward and every day that passes im that much closer to finally dying and i can finally stop this pathetic excuse of a life. I hope its soon.
September 27, 2025 at 5:50 PM
I think im coming to terms with the fact that deep down im just a burden and a waste of space, at this point im only moving forward because i know every step forward and every day that passes im that much closer to finally dying and i can finally stop this pathetic excuse of a life. I hope its soon.
The heart may be weak and sometimes it may even give in. But I've learned that deep down, there's a light that never goes out!
September 26, 2025 at 8:35 PM
The heart may be weak and sometimes it may even give in. But I've learned that deep down, there's a light that never goes out!
They can take your world. They can take your heart. Cut you loose from all you know. But if it's your fate...then every step forward will always be a step closer to home
September 26, 2025 at 8:33 PM
They can take your world. They can take your heart. Cut you loose from all you know. But if it's your fate...then every step forward will always be a step closer to home
A scattered dream that's like a far-off memory. A far-off memory that's like a scattered dream. I want to line the pieces up—yours and mine
September 21, 2025 at 11:01 PM
A scattered dream that's like a far-off memory. A far-off memory that's like a scattered dream. I want to line the pieces up—yours and mine
I've been having these weird thoughts lately... like is any of this for real or not?
September 21, 2025 at 2:16 PM
I've been having these weird thoughts lately... like is any of this for real or not?
Whoever first said “ sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me” can go fuck themselves, nothing has broken me more than the words said to me by the people closet to me, all my life my parents have told me how disappointing i am and ive been broken ever since, i hate myself
September 16, 2025 at 8:50 PM
Whoever first said “ sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me” can go fuck themselves, nothing has broken me more than the words said to me by the people closet to me, all my life my parents have told me how disappointing i am and ive been broken ever since, i hate myself