Venting Kellophane
@voidkellophane.bsky.social
She/Her • Neurodivergent • Disabled • 35+ • LGBTQIA+ Friendly • Medicinal Stoner • Taken • Gaming account: @kellophane.bsky.social • Banner: Honeybear, my cat • BLM • Trans Rights are Human Rights • 🇵🇸🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🇺🇦 •
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This will be the account I try to use to post my non-gaming thoughts on.
Things might get a bit rant-y & overall the tone may be darker.
You are not at all required to follow me, even if you follow me on @kellophane.bsky.social.
Blocking will be used liberally & without explanation.
This will be the account I try to use to post my non-gaming thoughts on.
Things might get a bit rant-y & overall the tone may be darker.
You are not at all required to follow me, even if you follow me on @kellophane.bsky.social.
Blocking will be used liberally & without explanation.
I am so very tired.
Nothing I do nor say is ever good enough.
No matter how long I spend agonizing over my words, I'm misunderstood.
No matter how much effort I put into things, it's dismissed or overlooked.
I just dont know wtf I'm supposed to do anymore when no matter what I do, it's wrong.
Nothing I do nor say is ever good enough.
No matter how long I spend agonizing over my words, I'm misunderstood.
No matter how much effort I put into things, it's dismissed or overlooked.
I just dont know wtf I'm supposed to do anymore when no matter what I do, it's wrong.
December 25, 2025 at 9:59 AM
I am so very tired.
Nothing I do nor say is ever good enough.
No matter how long I spend agonizing over my words, I'm misunderstood.
No matter how much effort I put into things, it's dismissed or overlooked.
I just dont know wtf I'm supposed to do anymore when no matter what I do, it's wrong.
Nothing I do nor say is ever good enough.
No matter how long I spend agonizing over my words, I'm misunderstood.
No matter how much effort I put into things, it's dismissed or overlooked.
I just dont know wtf I'm supposed to do anymore when no matter what I do, it's wrong.
Am I being petty and intentionally not picking up a prescription I didn't ask to be filled so they have to stock it again? Yes.
Am I gonna wait a few days after and make them fill it again? Also yes.
Am I gonna wait a few days after and make them fill it again? Also yes.
December 22, 2025 at 1:34 AM
Am I being petty and intentionally not picking up a prescription I didn't ask to be filled so they have to stock it again? Yes.
Am I gonna wait a few days after and make them fill it again? Also yes.
Am I gonna wait a few days after and make them fill it again? Also yes.
Nearly $4 TRILLION company & they cannot hire living humans to help customers?
Instead I get told by an AI that I need to do the steps I've already told it I cannot do due to inconsistencies on their part.
And the only solution beyond that is to post on a forum hoping another customer helps? JFC..
Instead I get told by an AI that I need to do the steps I've already told it I cannot do due to inconsistencies on their part.
And the only solution beyond that is to post on a forum hoping another customer helps? JFC..
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: I do not have access to those phone numbers anymore.
Google: Please go here to update them
Me: Ok
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: ...
Me: I do not have access to those phone numbers anymore.
Google: Please go here to update them
Me: Ok
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: ...
December 21, 2025 at 4:54 PM
Nearly $4 TRILLION company & they cannot hire living humans to help customers?
Instead I get told by an AI that I need to do the steps I've already told it I cannot do due to inconsistencies on their part.
And the only solution beyond that is to post on a forum hoping another customer helps? JFC..
Instead I get told by an AI that I need to do the steps I've already told it I cannot do due to inconsistencies on their part.
And the only solution beyond that is to post on a forum hoping another customer helps? JFC..
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: I do not have access to those phone numbers anymore.
Google: Please go here to update them
Me: Ok
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: ...
Me: I do not have access to those phone numbers anymore.
Google: Please go here to update them
Me: Ok
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: ...
December 21, 2025 at 4:24 PM
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: I do not have access to those phone numbers anymore.
Google: Please go here to update them
Me: Ok
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: ...
Me: I do not have access to those phone numbers anymore.
Google: Please go here to update them
Me: Ok
Google: You need to verify your account
Me: ...
It's wild that I was able to spend like 3 hours being like "Nope, tired of this brain. You're going to stop trying to piss on my relationship(s)"
And now I feel better & more productive than 6-ish months with my current therapist produced (when really he just tanked my mental health worse).
And now I feel better & more productive than 6-ish months with my current therapist produced (when really he just tanked my mental health worse).
December 21, 2025 at 2:13 PM
It's wild that I was able to spend like 3 hours being like "Nope, tired of this brain. You're going to stop trying to piss on my relationship(s)"
And now I feel better & more productive than 6-ish months with my current therapist produced (when really he just tanked my mental health worse).
And now I feel better & more productive than 6-ish months with my current therapist produced (when really he just tanked my mental health worse).
Not me now spending 2-ish hours trying to do research and find ways to work on this because I can't trust my current therapist. 🤣
But have read some good articles & begun journaling to try to find a path forward that is both healthy & respectful of my feelings.
But have read some good articles & begun journaling to try to find a path forward that is both healthy & respectful of my feelings.
Gods am I tired of my insecurities and past traumas fucking with my relationship.
I *know* I have a good partner.
I *know* he loves me as I love him.
And still I get swallowed by jealousy and insecurity by such stupid things. Always jumping at shadows and waiting for the "boot to drop" as it were.
I *know* I have a good partner.
I *know* he loves me as I love him.
And still I get swallowed by jealousy and insecurity by such stupid things. Always jumping at shadows and waiting for the "boot to drop" as it were.
December 21, 2025 at 1:36 PM
Not me now spending 2-ish hours trying to do research and find ways to work on this because I can't trust my current therapist. 🤣
But have read some good articles & begun journaling to try to find a path forward that is both healthy & respectful of my feelings.
But have read some good articles & begun journaling to try to find a path forward that is both healthy & respectful of my feelings.
Gods am I tired of my insecurities and past traumas fucking with my relationship.
I *know* I have a good partner.
I *know* he loves me as I love him.
And still I get swallowed by jealousy and insecurity by such stupid things. Always jumping at shadows and waiting for the "boot to drop" as it were.
I *know* I have a good partner.
I *know* he loves me as I love him.
And still I get swallowed by jealousy and insecurity by such stupid things. Always jumping at shadows and waiting for the "boot to drop" as it were.
December 21, 2025 at 10:37 AM
Gods am I tired of my insecurities and past traumas fucking with my relationship.
I *know* I have a good partner.
I *know* he loves me as I love him.
And still I get swallowed by jealousy and insecurity by such stupid things. Always jumping at shadows and waiting for the "boot to drop" as it were.
I *know* I have a good partner.
I *know* he loves me as I love him.
And still I get swallowed by jealousy and insecurity by such stupid things. Always jumping at shadows and waiting for the "boot to drop" as it were.
Sometimes one of the hardest parts of being disabled and having chronic illnesses (aside from the illnesses/disability themselves) is looking forward to something only then to be unable to either engage with it or enjoy it due to either pain/fatigue or other factors overshadowing it.
December 17, 2025 at 12:41 PM
Sometimes one of the hardest parts of being disabled and having chronic illnesses (aside from the illnesses/disability themselves) is looking forward to something only then to be unable to either engage with it or enjoy it due to either pain/fatigue or other factors overshadowing it.
Any time there's an engagement game, I don't bother.
Why would I?
I'm lucky to get a single response on them, let alone enough to make it to the end for the ones that have 20+ questions.
I just... I don't get it? I engage a lot with others but just feel overlooked.
Maybe everyone has me muted...
Why would I?
I'm lucky to get a single response on them, let alone enough to make it to the end for the ones that have 20+ questions.
I just... I don't get it? I engage a lot with others but just feel overlooked.
Maybe everyone has me muted...
December 7, 2025 at 9:55 PM
Any time there's an engagement game, I don't bother.
Why would I?
I'm lucky to get a single response on them, let alone enough to make it to the end for the ones that have 20+ questions.
I just... I don't get it? I engage a lot with others but just feel overlooked.
Maybe everyone has me muted...
Why would I?
I'm lucky to get a single response on them, let alone enough to make it to the end for the ones that have 20+ questions.
I just... I don't get it? I engage a lot with others but just feel overlooked.
Maybe everyone has me muted...
One of the things that upsets me about social media is having over 200 followers, but rarely getting more than 3-4 interactions on my posts on my main account.
How can there be so many ppl following but so extremely few interactions to the point I consistently feel invisible? 😮💨
How can there be so many ppl following but so extremely few interactions to the point I consistently feel invisible? 😮💨
December 7, 2025 at 9:52 PM
One of the things that upsets me about social media is having over 200 followers, but rarely getting more than 3-4 interactions on my posts on my main account.
How can there be so many ppl following but so extremely few interactions to the point I consistently feel invisible? 😮💨
How can there be so many ppl following but so extremely few interactions to the point I consistently feel invisible? 😮💨
Also very tired of people thinking that being asked for clarification is somehow an attack on them or their actions.
I'm literally trying to prevent any misunderstandings and it's causing misunderstandings.
Not a great system, tbh
I'm literally trying to prevent any misunderstandings and it's causing misunderstandings.
Not a great system, tbh
November 29, 2025 at 5:35 AM
Also very tired of people thinking that being asked for clarification is somehow an attack on them or their actions.
I'm literally trying to prevent any misunderstandings and it's causing misunderstandings.
Not a great system, tbh
I'm literally trying to prevent any misunderstandings and it's causing misunderstandings.
Not a great system, tbh
I am still so tired but my body is in too much pain to sleep comfortably. 😮💨
November 29, 2025 at 5:25 AM
I am still so tired but my body is in too much pain to sleep comfortably. 😮💨
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November 28, 2025 at 9:01 AM
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November 20, 2025 at 1:35 AM
It is incredibly frustrating to try my hardest to help those I care about only to have them not listen to me, not make changes, and then suffer from the same misery over and over again because of it.
If any of you stupid fucks would just LISTEN TO ME, we could all be spared this repeated suffering.
If any of you stupid fucks would just LISTEN TO ME, we could all be spared this repeated suffering.
November 12, 2025 at 9:13 PM
It is incredibly frustrating to try my hardest to help those I care about only to have them not listen to me, not make changes, and then suffer from the same misery over and over again because of it.
If any of you stupid fucks would just LISTEN TO ME, we could all be spared this repeated suffering.
If any of you stupid fucks would just LISTEN TO ME, we could all be spared this repeated suffering.
Niiiiiiiice.
Lived much longer than he should have given the blood on his hands, but still a good way to start a Tuesday.
Lived much longer than he should have given the blood on his hands, but still a good way to start a Tuesday.
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November 4, 2025 at 12:56 PM
Niiiiiiiice.
Lived much longer than he should have given the blood on his hands, but still a good way to start a Tuesday.
Lived much longer than he should have given the blood on his hands, but still a good way to start a Tuesday.
Seasonal depression, can you at least wait until it's no longer in the 80s/90s before you decide to show up?
It's the least you could do if you're going to insist on showing up every year uninvited. -_-
It's the least you could do if you're going to insist on showing up every year uninvited. -_-
November 2, 2025 at 8:00 AM
Seasonal depression, can you at least wait until it's no longer in the 80s/90s before you decide to show up?
It's the least you could do if you're going to insist on showing up every year uninvited. -_-
It's the least you could do if you're going to insist on showing up every year uninvited. -_-
Always fun to spiral because a joke I thought was hilarious didn't land.
Whew
Whew
October 27, 2025 at 1:58 AM
Always fun to spiral because a joke I thought was hilarious didn't land.
Whew
Whew
Gods I hope people in Jamaica and Haiti will be okay and Hurricane Melissa doesn't do as much damage as they're predicting.
October 27, 2025 at 12:47 AM
Gods I hope people in Jamaica and Haiti will be okay and Hurricane Melissa doesn't do as much damage as they're predicting.
I need a shock collar that will zap me any time I start bitching or complaining.
Nothing changes and there's nothing I can do to change that.
The best thing would just for me to be silent rather than continue talking to walls.
Nothing changes and there's nothing I can do to change that.
The best thing would just for me to be silent rather than continue talking to walls.
October 25, 2025 at 4:50 AM
I need a shock collar that will zap me any time I start bitching or complaining.
Nothing changes and there's nothing I can do to change that.
The best thing would just for me to be silent rather than continue talking to walls.
Nothing changes and there's nothing I can do to change that.
The best thing would just for me to be silent rather than continue talking to walls.
I wish I could survive without human contact.
October 21, 2025 at 6:04 AM
I wish I could survive without human contact.
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm invisible.
Kellophane continues to be the most apt moniker I've ever given myself...
Kellophane continues to be the most apt moniker I've ever given myself...
October 13, 2025 at 12:25 AM
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm invisible.
Kellophane continues to be the most apt moniker I've ever given myself...
Kellophane continues to be the most apt moniker I've ever given myself...
Highly annoyed to get a text from CVS telling me I need to get the HPV vaccine.
1.) I got the vaccine back in 2006 when it was first approved
2.) You do not have my full vaccine records and therefore have no way of knowing which vaccines I do or do not need.
Stay in your fucking lane, CVS.
1.) I got the vaccine back in 2006 when it was first approved
2.) You do not have my full vaccine records and therefore have no way of knowing which vaccines I do or do not need.
Stay in your fucking lane, CVS.
October 11, 2025 at 3:36 PM
Highly annoyed to get a text from CVS telling me I need to get the HPV vaccine.
1.) I got the vaccine back in 2006 when it was first approved
2.) You do not have my full vaccine records and therefore have no way of knowing which vaccines I do or do not need.
Stay in your fucking lane, CVS.
1.) I got the vaccine back in 2006 when it was first approved
2.) You do not have my full vaccine records and therefore have no way of knowing which vaccines I do or do not need.
Stay in your fucking lane, CVS.
Sometimes I feel like untangling all of my trauma and learning how to function in a healthy way is a lot like trying to climb Mount Everest while still learning how to walk.
It'll be worth it in the long run, I believe this with my whole heart, but it sure does feel absolutely overwhelming, too.
It'll be worth it in the long run, I believe this with my whole heart, but it sure does feel absolutely overwhelming, too.
October 11, 2025 at 2:43 PM
Sometimes I feel like untangling all of my trauma and learning how to function in a healthy way is a lot like trying to climb Mount Everest while still learning how to walk.
It'll be worth it in the long run, I believe this with my whole heart, but it sure does feel absolutely overwhelming, too.
It'll be worth it in the long run, I believe this with my whole heart, but it sure does feel absolutely overwhelming, too.
Sometimes I can definitely see how lonely I am and how desperately I crave connection with like-minded people, but I have absolutely no fcking idea how to achieve that.
I either freeze up completely and roadblock myself or I break like a dam and flood the other person with too much too fast. :/
I either freeze up completely and roadblock myself or I break like a dam and flood the other person with too much too fast. :/
September 29, 2025 at 10:38 PM
Sometimes I can definitely see how lonely I am and how desperately I crave connection with like-minded people, but I have absolutely no fcking idea how to achieve that.
I either freeze up completely and roadblock myself or I break like a dam and flood the other person with too much too fast. :/
I either freeze up completely and roadblock myself or I break like a dam and flood the other person with too much too fast. :/