i already spend so much time feeling lost irl, i really didnt want it in games as well but idk what to do. idk how to make friends n it feels like most ppl in game already have their groups and places and whatnot.

playing w casuals was w/e when i was learning n i dont want to sound mean but theres nothing left to learn from a group when ur probably the best player in it. i want to get better at the game, i want to learn more and do the challenging content on level and whatnot but im not going to get that here

and i know its bcus they dont care about being geared and they dont care about doing stuff on content n it makes me so tired. how do i get adopted into a static of some kind. where do i go to find ppl who actually appreciate me lmao

i just want upscales for armor i use and knowledge for vfx editing so i can have thematic stuff thats more canon for my chars. ugh

i did a bit of trying to make my own but there was a lot of scuff cus parts i didnt know how to do. id love to get into making my own stuff but it feels like (updated) guides are impossible to find or "just join [ ] disc0rds"

i just want a real sense of belonging for once in my life. when am i going to find my people