Maybe not even try, but thinking about them and *how you feel about it* might help you figure out what you could change about what you're thinking or doing. It might not be a solution, but it might be progress so you don't feel so stuck

and you can build on it and keep going.

have you tried non-sexual romantic relationships? or sexual friendships? like I said, I don't presume to know what might work for you but if what you're doing isn't working, I'm just suggesting things to think about.

I don't know what could or will work for you, but if its distressing, try changing what you're doing or how you're thinking about (which I know is hard, but can be worth it)
2) its interesting that you contrast platonic and romantic relationships in a world with the concepts of asexuality and 'FWB'

it seems like you should try to value what you can get from platonic relationships, be ok with what you are looking for from them, or, if doing that is causing the problems, maybe be more up front about what you need or try spreading those needs over multiple relationships.

ok, but at least try to recognize the contradictions there:
1)saying you 'don't get much out of relationships' and 'over rely' on romantic ones makes it sound like you are hard on yourself for trying to get what you need where you can.

Blaming yourself ignores a plethora of other things going on to help you feel worse about yourself: Don't do that!

I'm not saying be mad at external stuff, but be nicer to yourself and being aware of what else might be contributing. It might help you work on it and value other relationships more

pfft, "nobody else's fault" when so much pop culture is about love interests and glorifying romantic relationships and 'soul mates' and 'other halves'
and at the same time feelings of loneliness and isolation are on the rise for lots of people, not just you.

Allowing yourself to make "bad" art is so important!
for letting yourself be bad at things you are learning
for letting yourself enjoy the process, not just focus on the product
for doing things just for yourself, not caring if anyone else likes it or it's monetizable

There's so many things that are good and important to do, but it's easy to (or we're conditioned to) see as 'bad art'.
Glad you're working on it!
Me too!
Good luck to everyone working on it this year!

Allowing yourself to make "bad" art is so important!
for letting yourself be bad at things you are learning
for letting yourself enjoy the process, not just focus on the product
for doing things just for yourself, not caring if anyone else likes it or it's monetizable