Aj
@wearylungs.bsky.social
"courage comes from a place of fear. So let's do it afraid"
I weighed myself yesterday and I was 345 so I had to be pushing 450 in that video. That man was completely different
December 1, 2025 at 3:19 PM
I weighed myself yesterday and I was 345 so I had to be pushing 450 in that video. That man was completely different
I saw a video of me from three years ago and seeing me now almost made me cry dude I've come so far
December 1, 2025 at 3:18 PM
I saw a video of me from three years ago and seeing me now almost made me cry dude I've come so far
Just had the biggest guy at the gym tell me I've got a perfect build for powerlifting and honestly what a fuckin compliment
October 24, 2025 at 8:18 PM
Just had the biggest guy at the gym tell me I've got a perfect build for powerlifting and honestly what a fuckin compliment
Also really helps that any time I fail a lift, I'm able to sit back and remember a year ago when I wouldn't even think id come close to what I just did. The biggest example being bench press, where I struggled with the (20lb smith machine)bar and a 25, now my working set is two plates
October 1, 2025 at 1:29 PM
Also really helps that any time I fail a lift, I'm able to sit back and remember a year ago when I wouldn't even think id come close to what I just did. The biggest example being bench press, where I struggled with the (20lb smith machine)bar and a 25, now my working set is two plates
Like, I see myself every day and can't notice the small changes, but knowing they exist and they're noticeable makes me want to push even harder
October 1, 2025 at 1:27 PM
Like, I see myself every day and can't notice the small changes, but knowing they exist and they're noticeable makes me want to push even harder
I'm lying out my ass though if I said I don't get a huge boost from people who've been watching me since day one and come up to me talking about how cool it is to see how much I've changed.
October 1, 2025 at 1:27 PM
I'm lying out my ass though if I said I don't get a huge boost from people who've been watching me since day one and come up to me talking about how cool it is to see how much I've changed.
Its weird though bc I'm also at a point where dudes will see me lifting heavy and give me a "you're doing good, keep it up" and part of me thinks it's just from my size and it annoys me, but then the other part of me sees it as super motivating and valisating
October 1, 2025 at 1:26 PM
Its weird though bc I'm also at a point where dudes will see me lifting heavy and give me a "you're doing good, keep it up" and part of me thinks it's just from my size and it annoys me, but then the other part of me sees it as super motivating and valisating
I'm at a stage in the gym where I see the bigger dudes in the gym looking over when I start a set to see if I need a spot and then getting that lil head nod when I don't and I think that's really cool
October 1, 2025 at 1:24 PM
I'm at a stage in the gym where I see the bigger dudes in the gym looking over when I start a set to see if I need a spot and then getting that lil head nod when I don't and I think that's really cool
In the two years of my fitness journey, I've learned that one of the biggest things to know is that thin and healthy are not the same thing
September 3, 2025 at 2:25 AM
In the two years of my fitness journey, I've learned that one of the biggest things to know is that thin and healthy are not the same thing
Dude the chest pump was insane today
July 29, 2025 at 8:57 PM
Dude the chest pump was insane today
The goal isn't necessarily to build muscle but hey if it's working it's working lmao
July 8, 2025 at 12:55 PM
The goal isn't necessarily to build muscle but hey if it's working it's working lmao
The energy is low and I feel much less strong in the gym but we keep it pushing
July 8, 2025 at 12:54 PM
The energy is low and I feel much less strong in the gym but we keep it pushing
Three weeks into my diet/cut and I'm down almost 2% body fat and up 1.6lbs of muscle
Hell yeah brother
Hell yeah brother
July 8, 2025 at 12:54 PM
Three weeks into my diet/cut and I'm down almost 2% body fat and up 1.6lbs of muscle
Hell yeah brother
Hell yeah brother
It's hard to verbalize, but it's always been internal. Since the beginning, I've been super timid and almost afraid to let people see me. But lately I've had a few people ask for spots, and having conversations with the people I see every day
June 21, 2025 at 2:42 AM
It's hard to verbalize, but it's always been internal. Since the beginning, I've been super timid and almost afraid to let people see me. But lately I've had a few people ask for spots, and having conversations with the people I see every day
And it was never about feeling judged or seeing looks. That never happened, and even if it did, I couldn't care less about what someone else has to say. That's never mattered because ive always been a "head down" guy. The gym is just another errand to run after work
June 21, 2025 at 2:38 AM
And it was never about feeling judged or seeing looks. That never happened, and even if it did, I couldn't care less about what someone else has to say. That's never mattered because ive always been a "head down" guy. The gym is just another errand to run after work
It's taken me almost two years of being in the gym 3-6 days a week to start to feel like I belong and deserve to be there.
June 21, 2025 at 2:36 AM
It's taken me almost two years of being in the gym 3-6 days a week to start to feel like I belong and deserve to be there.
Not many things in the gym better than your warmup movement feeling light
June 7, 2025 at 11:03 PM
Not many things in the gym better than your warmup movement feeling light
Basically the only muscle that I can't really see so we'll fuckin take it
June 6, 2025 at 9:06 PM
Basically the only muscle that I can't really see so we'll fuckin take it
We got some lats poking out from my back so that's pretty cool
June 6, 2025 at 9:06 PM
We got some lats poking out from my back so that's pretty cool
I think the biggest factor in bringing me back to enjoying life was finding a sense of community. Whether it's live music or fitness, I thrive in a setting where people can come together with common interests and share a common experience. That's 100% showcased in the gym
May 28, 2025 at 6:18 PM
I think the biggest factor in bringing me back to enjoying life was finding a sense of community. Whether it's live music or fitness, I thrive in a setting where people can come together with common interests and share a common experience. That's 100% showcased in the gym
I am grateful now though that I'm going to the gym to feel good. I keep going because it's actually fun for me. I'm in a place where everyone there has the same goal.
May 28, 2025 at 6:17 PM
I am grateful now though that I'm going to the gym to feel good. I keep going because it's actually fun for me. I'm in a place where everyone there has the same goal.
So now, I can easily and confidently say that I've done what I set out to do. I'm healing, and now every day in the gym or every walk I take comes with a mindset of correcting a lifetime of poor choices. And it works yall
May 28, 2025 at 6:14 PM
So now, I can easily and confidently say that I've done what I set out to do. I'm healing, and now every day in the gym or every walk I take comes with a mindset of correcting a lifetime of poor choices. And it works yall
I had to go through a years long process of teaching me that life is worth living, and that emotions are meant to be felt, but that they're temporary. Existence is only possible if everything works together
May 28, 2025 at 6:12 PM
I had to go through a years long process of teaching me that life is worth living, and that emotions are meant to be felt, but that they're temporary. Existence is only possible if everything works together
I don't remember quite when, but it really was like a switch went off in my head. I realized that life is kinda cool, and there's a lot to enjoy about being here. I still struggle with wanting to be alive, but I've relearned what it means to keep going
May 28, 2025 at 6:11 PM
I don't remember quite when, but it really was like a switch went off in my head. I realized that life is kinda cool, and there's a lot to enjoy about being here. I still struggle with wanting to be alive, but I've relearned what it means to keep going
Of course, I still struggle with that. I still have those thoughts and feelings from time to time. But the difference is now I can be proud of what I'm doing and what I've done
May 28, 2025 at 6:08 PM
Of course, I still struggle with that. I still have those thoughts and feelings from time to time. But the difference is now I can be proud of what I'm doing and what I've done