I love my boyfriend and my bestfriend so much but I feel like I lean on them too much so I’ve just been keeping my distance. Why am I even here man.

TO BLOW MY FUCKING BRAINS OUT

WHY THE FUCK DO I NEED TO HE THE ONE THAT HAS TO STEP UP FOR EVERYONE ELSE, FOR FUCKS SAKE I WANT TO KILL MYSELF SO BAD BUT IM KEPT HERE BECAUSE MY DISGUSTING ASS FAMILY WOULD USE MY DEATH FOR GAIN I HATE BEING ALIVE I HATE BEING A FUCKING PUNCHING BAG AND THE “EASY TO TALK TO ONE” I WANT

LET ME DIE IM TIRED OF HURTING LIME THIS

Now I live alone and where’s the energy that I gave everyone else. My parents only call to ask for shit, my sister used me for everything I was worth and abandoned me. I want to kill myself . I want to kill myself . I want to kill my self . I FUCKINF HATE BEING HERE I WANT TO END THIS SHIT

I ran away from home because of the abuse I dealt with, having my bank accounts never be mine, being controlled by the government, being controlled by my mom and sister , being controlled by my adoptive mom. WHEN DOES IT END. ALL I DO IS FIGHT BUT WHAT AM I EVEN FIGHTING FOR

Fucking wrists and be done with it I can finally be free. Finally be free from the expectations and loneliness I feel all the time, be free from myself. Be free from it all. I’ve never been free I’ve always been somebodies bitch, somebody’s punching bag, somebody’s therapist.

“I didn’t know things were this bad”

Shut the fuck up , you did know, you just choose to ignore it, because it’s alot easier for YOU to rant about your privelaged ass problems to me then to just listen to me when I’m not feeling good. I’m tired of feeling like an object. Maybe if I just slit my

Being handicapped and sick and not being able to work. Is hell. Man when not if I kill myself I hope the dozen of times I’ve had to bury my own feelings because no one cared or because I had to prioritize someone else doesn’t make someone pretend to care. I’m sick of being here.