Like I'm sorry, it screams not having a backbone when it comes to queer folks and their rights, and you're not excused from that sentiment just because you're queer. I find it sad personally.

Like yeah no shit I'm not gonna police what you do with your cash but it does reflect negatively on you and I'm not gonna pretend that it doesn't

But if you're not willing to so much as give up mediocre chicken for your liberation I don't trust you to fight for it either and I don't fw that

I don't really know why I care because I actually don't fw this person regardless but the blatant disrespect does still bug me

Like idk! I feel like I'm starting to actually integrate into groups instead of feeling like a floater or like I'm off to the side and that makes me happy. It's been really really awesome to go to gatherings and have people be like "yeah let's make plans for later this week"

"TAXES GOT ME OUT OF DEBT" //sound of train hitting me

(It's not joever for me financially I'm just bummed lol)

I don't expect actual answers, this isn't an exact science and there's not some piece of a formula I'm missing, I know I just have to keep trying but UGH it feels like all my effort just goes to waste sometimes and it frustrates me to all shit because it confirms I can't live this way :')

I'm not the best artist in the world but I like to think that I charge decent prices for sometimes pretty damn good work, idk what I'm missing...

And sometimes it'll feel like in certain circles there're folks that will comm everyone except for me (likely not actually true but it feels like it h)

I don't want to sound entitled or anything, I'm not owed comms by any means and if what I have to offer isn't what someone is looking for I don't want someone's money to be spent on something they don't want

But it also starts to become like. What do other people have that I don't, y'know?

Like if you feel ostracized have you considered it may be in relation to how you conduct yourself instead of blaming it solely on the fact that you're sfw? Some people garnering a large following from creating nsfw content doesn't make it a requirement to exist in furry spaces.

Sometimes this'll even be in reference to people that I've like. Stayed at their place. Or hung out with at cons for reasonable periods of time. Why the fuck would they do that for the sake of "being nice"
I hate what social media has done to my brain

"Oh hey I'm friends with this person irl but they don't follow me on [insert platform] so clearly it's a face and they're just being nice" is so fucking stupid to say aloud but it still gets me sometimes and it totally shouldn't??? Who cares man this person is my homie and I can just talk to them.

I'm gonna open cheap doodle comms soon as I'm done crashing the fuck out over how ridiculous my work schedule is (but at least it's money i guess...)

Not to mention cutting my expenses over last month by $500 what a fucking win