Idk, I'll leave it there but, god games don't feel the way they used to. I don't know if it's the games themselves, my depression trying to rip enjoyment out of it or I'm just shit at things now

I'm all happy that I got a new internal position at work but I feel like that's where my focus has gone and slowly and slowly, I'm just not enjoying games anymore. It's making me panic because I don't really have much left in terms of things I'm THIS passionate about

I couldn't even finish Legends ZA, like I just lost interest so quickly with that game, trying to rush it just to shiny hunt, but I can't even bring myself to do that?

Idk I need a place to vent away from everyone because they're probably sick of it but at the same time they don't really get where I'm coming from

Is this it? Am I just old now? Have I hit the point where I'm shit?

And since it's my only passion I care strongly for, when I'm doing shit at something or not enjoying it makes me feel really down

I've been elite for absolute years but this last couple of months everything has gone downhill with games really bad

I think my mind is changing drastically and apparently this is something that happens to dudes in their mid to late twenties and the changes in my brain have become so significant I've ramped up my therapy literally 3 fold