(3/114) The one who is misled to seek it in the sky should envy birds; if under waves then wales and dolphins; you instead should seek the reign of truth that’s in your mind; it is within and reigns of you; you see yourself and know the truth; you miss yourself and then you’re amiss; so Yeshua says.

И всё же не всегда
для прекращения зла
необходима смерть носителя зла: да,
я всё ещё хочу, чтобы он дожил до суда -
мне нужна правда,
ответ на вопрос «Зачем?!».
А если внятного ответа нет,
чтоб это стало очевидно всем.

(2/2)

I suppose you could always
hire an “office” to assist…
Ты в кармических долгах
как в шелках,
любимый, is what I’m saying.
Our sexlife will be amazing…

(3/3)

Then you’re supposed to make a move.
Yes, you.
I’m practically a Victorian,
that’s how old-fashioned I am.
This isn’t my inhibition, I insist,
it’s not a bug, it’s a feature.
Can you handle it?
Mr-I-have-another-candidate…

(2/3)

to affect everyone you love”.
But in truth, deep down,
they all knew it’s all about
the towers and walls,
divides and schisms
that must never be bridged -
the proper order of things,
and you’re an overly imaginative
dreamer who’ll soon get over it.

(2/2)

a protector:
could a promise
of a punch in a face
for every one of such times
be a deterrent?
I am too fragile.
It’s neither gold nor diamond
but a crystal or glass
already broken so many times,
re-melted by fire,
re-molded into something
to be broken again.
Can you possibly understand?

(3/3)

I shouldn’t do it.
And you -
what could it possibly be -
the greater evil
that you’ve averted?
When we are together
will you keep doing it?
The answer is Yes.
Obviously.
It is worth it, isn’t it?
Can you possibly understand
a fear of happiness?
Maybe that’s why
I was always craving a brother,

(2/3)

I shouldn’t do it.
And you - what could it possibly be -
the greater evil
that you’ve averted by hurting me?
If we are together will you keep doing it?
The answer is yes.
Yet, it’s still worth it, isn’t it?
Can you possibly understand
someone who was never happy?

(2/2)

prewritten:
every kitten
carries it around,
like every werewolf carries a flower.
For about an hour
I’m contemplating
what’s coming:
the charge is too much,
the storm is brewing.
What shape will it take,
the protuberance?
The screams has just stopped:
is the world
brightened
or darkened?

(2/2)

лишь бы не говорить мне ничего прямо,
чтобы plausible deniability?
Если расчеловечивание - это не по-людски,
то почему меня - можно?
Зачем это путинским,
я понимаю: это им органично.
Но ты-то?

(2/2)

“Excellent”?)
I suppose I could pretend
that as of now you are a writer
and…
a lecturer? an entertainer?
We all have our past:
I used to be a CTO,
which is considered cool in some circles.
It doesn’t mean I’m too cool for a lecturer.
I decided to think of you as such,
this is much better.

(5/5)

This fantasy
of a parallel universe
where you are a musician
appeals to me…
Reverses all my insecurities…
I’d take you
in my heart and my house
like a street kitten
and you wouldn’t even struggle…
Very appealing…
(How come there’s no emoji
for this gesture
that MrBurns does
when he says

(4/5)

lips;
albeit aged and unattractive females,
but - always pleasant to hear.
Right?
Seriously, man, listen to all the candidates,
then decide -
is the wisest thing you should’ve learnt
from that story of the princely moron…
Who chooses power
when there are all these
other options???
Yes…

(3/5)

you should’ve stuck
to your original plan
from oh… 50 years ago?
By now you’d be
a recovered drug addict,
tired of groupies
and in a mood for serious
with someone cool and exotic -
me.
But women might’ve still
come by to you on a street
with adoration in their eyes
and “I love you” on their

(2/5)

Как ты думаешь, стоило оно того?
А то
ты наделал кармических долгов
таких, что тебе с такими на самое дно.
А ты слишком хрупкий,
у тебя нет привычки.
Ну что, стоит оно того?

(3/3)

что наслали проклятий,
которых хватило бы на дюжину монстров,
а я - всего лишь я,
в сущности никто.
А может,
на прошлой итерации,
в конце,
я взяла на себя всю твою вину,
чтобы ты опять родился в рубашке,
с серебряной ложкой во рту,
все дороги открыты,
все устрицы.

(2/3)

how deep it will cut,
how much it will hurt?
Common wisdom
is only applicable to commons.
Or normals -
however you want to call it.
It’s not a presumption
but an observation.
Speaking of which… Every morning
I wake up in fear these days.
I don’t think this will end well.

(5/5)