also! vent is @juneaus.bsky.social, but i block Very freely on there (i feel mean about it but basically if u follow and idrk u like that i might block but it isnt personal)

make things and love things even when ur cringe and bad at them :)

also i just feel like every time i look at my tl on this account i see stupid shit and shit i dont care or know about and

aww thank u oomf :(( 🫶 hopefully catching the good things

oh boy,, thank u! honest answer is the worst depressive episode ive ever had! barely 'functioning', big relapse, a lot of fighting for any help, some physical health issues on top of it (got covid?, havent kicked it, the fatigue is BAD). just trying to make it to the next appointment over and over

its mine and my girlfriends anniversary on the 9th/10th and im flying over to see her on the 14th to do a little combined late-anniversary-early-christmas visit! thatll be fuuun

Me, pretty vehemently anti psych, seeing a psychiatrist... welcome to jackass

im actually making progress!! it took the emergency services and a lot of pestering but ive Finally been referred to a psychiatrist and have a bit of a working diagnosis! and i told my mum about a lot of this and shes actually being really normal and supportive agh

i will not be coming to ur Rager ur Clearly 17 ❤️

rewatch* ive seen it before but

ive been going on for way too long now so ill shut up, but im glad im letting go of my anger a bit as i get older, even if it hurts So fuckin bad to properly miss him for the first time :')

through me, mostly unintentionally. it upsets me when his family tell me how much im like him - they think he was a saint and deny the things he put me through - but really, theyre right, i am like him. but i wont ever end up like him

we've actually got a really similar art style! he also had a breaking bad obsession! he's also why i go by my middle name and not my first - he did the same ever since he was a little kid. i bet None of you even knew my first name is matthew! in a weird way who he was before all of this lives

he was a troublemaker as a kid, especially in secondary school, but he was a local rubix cube champion, loved star trek and fought w his star wars brother over it, was a really good artist, went on to be a steel worker, and didnt stop biking until he got sick. we arent so different, really