Which also is a problem in many other aspects. I love when everything is Perfect and I need to make everything perfect (even as a complete beginner, see the problem here), it really does refrain from trying new stuff. Being over critical and too hard on yourself is a Curse I don't know how to lift

Learning with Pink Floyds songs for now cause these are very gradual and fun to play. Teacher was impressed I played Money after so little time but dude, I play everyday and more importantly, I HAVE SO MUCH FUN! Also wonderful teacher, he has to take credit as well

Next we will work on writing music and rhythms on sheets. I can read tabs but never really wrote anything yet so that's gonna be nice 👀 I like the logic of it, little squiggles go brrrr

So true. Can't even afford a place to live on my own, stuck with my parents, no future, disabled so fuck that shit. Let's be real for a moment, life is clearly not worth it at this point in time 🙄

I like the idea of Cat Moths or Cat Shrimps, doodled one a bit ago. Has to be cat related, obviously

I should enter some short course in August to help figure shit out professionally for disabled people so hopefully I will be taken seriously.
I don't know what to do anymore and being optimistic is a damn waste of time and energy 👍