Nothing I do is for me. All I do is take care of other people and their decisions.
I miss enjoying MY life.
But if I step away I will not enjoy it regardless, because I will know I destroyed other lives that depend on me.
I'm useless.

Physically and emotionally beat down.
I have to communicate it as it is crushing me.
At the same time if I do I feel like people then only interact with me out of guilt not because they actually want to spend time with me.

Maybe here I can post how awful I feel and not be told how I should feel?