I want to say yes, then I imagine it on my neck and I'm no longer sure what's going on in an unsettling way with lots of quick, random movements. It really does look amazing, though.

It's quite elegant, a kitchen epiphany.

You've found the true meaning of Christmas. But, seriously, I had to start and stay on beta blockers after the third bout with COVID back in 2021 to keep mine below 125, and my resting now seems to be about 90 unless I'm close to losing consciousness with 20 points added to my diastolic.

The slope from disability to involuntary institutionalization has never seemed so slippery. Into year 7 of a mass-disabling event, the current climate feels like they might skip the locking us away for a bit part. Meanwhile doctors are backsliding on Long COVID, and there are more of us each day.

200+ albums gives you your own radio station. I was going to upgrade them all to FLAC once storage got big enough, and now the music industry decided to lawyer the good phone player I had with an equalizer out of existence. Feels like Columbia Record Club is laughing at me from the grave.

Now imagine how much exercise you'll get bringing a grocery cart full of cash to buy your loaf of bread.

White pride is so in right now, and it's not even the 30s yet.

I wonder how many of us it will take before I'll stop being told there are just so few of us doctors can't be bothered with learning about or doing anything for the symptoms it brings to areas of my body that fall directly within their specialties.

It's that time of year.

Yeah, just a few months until 3 years since doctors stopped following the science even in places where masks had been the norm before the pandemic. I wonder if terms like "acceptable losses" and "unavoidable casualties" were used in the messaging to health care professionals for the rollout.

Oryx and Crake

Sure, there are people who can't read COVID studies because they are scientific despite accessible introductions and conclusions, but I've met so many doctors who can't seem to read them for emotional or financial reasons. They tend to be the same ones who tell me LC is a conversion disorder.

The fun part is that in addition to the partial, intermittent paralysis l also can't feel that I haven't completely swallowed something until I move and the bolus of food squeezes my airway closed.

One of my cats eats the plastic fibers off the scratchy ramp we got for her to claw and the dogs to use to get on the couch. It's hard to stop her because she's very sneaky. Before the ramp it was anything in a think plastic film. She can't be left alone with a container of dental floss either.

Don't worry about me

No one would question you going all Raiders of the Lost Arc ending on him next time he cracks open a Big Mac carton.

Can't wait to find out if I'm a rapid progressor or other people really aren't going to get this damage to their T and B cells in another 4.5 years or so. Well, at least doctors will stop telling me there's so few of us that they just can't be fucked with learning how to help us.