eventually i will be strong enough to get to these viewpoints i know about, but god damn was this trail steep with barely any flat areas to rest, no shit multiple 51% grade areas and boy am i weak lmao, very pretty and worth it, but ouchy

"does anyone in your family have hemophilia" no but i watched four of my grandparents rot while alive and i refuse to subject my friends and family to watching me lose my mind and watch my body rot while being forced to breathe like i had to watch them with hardly any explanation past "it happens"

like why do i have to be actively dying to have anyone give a shit enough to let me get tested, i have had like three family members in my entire extended family die of like regular things like old age or injuries and i would like to not suffer like everyone else, is that not enough?

"do you have a genetic history of cancer?" not that im aware of cause most everyone either kms'd or died in some other horrific way or isnt old enough for insurance to cover scans for it, like pls i have asymmetrical deformities and weird ass issues with no explanation just schedule me aaaaaaa

immersion blender aquired, time to redeem myself

i personally think its because i had to disclose the beans due to the blender fuck up and the mental block of "theres beans in here" ruined it past the texture

chunky brownies were not acceptable and i am getting shit on for it ): officially labelled one of the worst things ive cooked

idk maybe im just irrationally angry cause theres a lot of them in my area which has basically nothing to help anyone with mental health issues so quite literally the only help available is already calling them scum who should rot in jail, gee wonder why the dogs you get are in rough shape

like idk how to get it through to them that demonizing the previous owners of their rescues is directly contributing to the worsening of these dogs situations, they dont care, they just want the social points for posting how much better of a person they are than them, and it irritates me to no end

and if you have the balls to point this out directly to any of them? they never. fucking. listen. like seriously, if anything youll get harrassed and borderline doxxed by their followers for caring about a human beings wellness and dignity in relation to a rough situation for everyone involved

like idk if you have ever known or bothered to respect anyone with mental health issues as a human being, but you know what someone already struggling with the fact they cant care for their family is going to do when they see you saying these things? not reach out to you thats for damn sure 🧵

the first thing people do when they realize they cant care for their animals anymore is look into rescues and shelters, and they see you and your followers calling them wretched people who should be in prison,,, for needing help? for caring about the wellbeing of their animals over their feelings? 🧵

estate sales, thrift stores, antique malls, and fb marketplace are absolutely great if you just look around long enough, its bs a lot of the times but like, there are actually good things out there if you're patient

saying this as a neo pronoun using full adult who still openly uses "useless" labels for my orientation, you have no idea how many people randomly confide in me they wish they could still have their neos on their pages but are scared of the potential social harm they will face again, maybe stop? (:

ive been considering nebula but i also dont like subscription services outside of necessity, which im starting to think maybe just switching hard into music as my background noise alone would be easier than figuring this out, but i like silly videos and learning and ugh

i just want to learn things and improve my life, not get dragged further and further into communities that seclude themselves and offer outsiders no help (': like locking your guides behind a telegram link doesnt increase your security, it just puts it on a platform people find morally objectionable