I vented abt this to my bff recently and he just said itll pass and to not make any rash choices yet bc it hasn't even been a year..

maybe once my L2D full model for vania is done ill feel better

I seriously should have sat down and thought harder abt the rebrand instead of rushing it bc I missed streaming. I know one day ill graduate from her and swap over to more personal stuff but I feel like I should have incorporated more into her of myself.

time will tell how things work out ig

I might theme my Tumblr after the last ep bc WOW I cant stop thinking about it

now if only it could cure my actual depression and anxiety :D

I have to take more meds still but at least my mental state is getting better, its been really good the last week w my friends. Just need to stop saying im gonna kms as a joke, its a bad ass habit

its also weekly pay and a ton of walking and exercise all around, im def gonna be winded in the beginning bc im big but itll hopefully help me lose weight bc my meds have gone higher dose so my weights been worse.

20. only regret i have is letting others make my ocs, it leaves such a bad taste when they no longer are friends

I also regret a lot of the ones ive probably forgotten about

19. the entire reason I make ocs is for them to be self inserts sjdmsmd

18. Just my old vtuner design and dnd girl, both helped made by someone who isn't in my life anymore. tweaked them to my own designs and I love them so much more now ♡