Yam (Alex)
@yamyamalex.bsky.social
Sometimes theatre maker, oftentimes runner, mosttimes talking on tangents. 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ (he/him)
I decided to wake up an hour earlier this morning to do a big food shop before work and now I'm tired and grumpy and still friggin ill.
December 23, 2025 at 7:41 AM
I decided to wake up an hour earlier this morning to do a big food shop before work and now I'm tired and grumpy and still friggin ill.
Is The Grinch his given name? Based on the quote from the Book of Who, they call him "grinchy" due to lack of Christmas cheer - even if he was exhibiting that attitude early on presumably he was named something before that?
December 22, 2025 at 10:22 PM
Is The Grinch his given name? Based on the quote from the Book of Who, they call him "grinchy" due to lack of Christmas cheer - even if he was exhibiting that attitude early on presumably he was named something before that?
Losing my voice and I really should nip out to get some lozenges but I've already run 15k today and I have to walk to the pub later so I cba to make another trip.
First world problems.
First world problems.
December 21, 2025 at 11:00 AM
Losing my voice and I really should nip out to get some lozenges but I've already run 15k today and I have to walk to the pub later so I cba to make another trip.
First world problems.
First world problems.
I need them to make an ADHD advent calendar which is just one big window labelled January 5th because that's when I'll eventually remember it exists and open them all anyway.
(This is why I've not had one since I was a kid 😅)
(This is why I've not had one since I was a kid 😅)
December 20, 2025 at 11:15 AM
I need them to make an ADHD advent calendar which is just one big window labelled January 5th because that's when I'll eventually remember it exists and open them all anyway.
(This is why I've not had one since I was a kid 😅)
(This is why I've not had one since I was a kid 😅)
Very glad I didn't parkrun because I feel absolutely rotten 🤢
December 20, 2025 at 10:04 AM
Very glad I didn't parkrun because I feel absolutely rotten 🤢
Oh shit I've now become useful at work.
This was bad timing for that to happen 🙃
This was bad timing for that to happen 🙃
December 19, 2025 at 4:05 PM
Oh shit I've now become useful at work.
This was bad timing for that to happen 🙃
This was bad timing for that to happen 🙃
So today I worked out that my spoons are mostly related to starting tasks. So by the afternoon I'd run out of spoons to start any new tasks but I could carry on with something I'd started earlier in the day.
It's hardly a groundbreaking realisation but useful to know.
It's hardly a groundbreaking realisation but useful to know.
December 17, 2025 at 10:35 PM
So today I worked out that my spoons are mostly related to starting tasks. So by the afternoon I'd run out of spoons to start any new tasks but I could carry on with something I'd started earlier in the day.
It's hardly a groundbreaking realisation but useful to know.
It's hardly a groundbreaking realisation but useful to know.
Work is very busy. Woke up early so I can get started before 9 and be on top of things... But I'm actually just having a long lie in instead 😅
December 17, 2025 at 8:07 AM
Work is very busy. Woke up early so I can get started before 9 and be on top of things... But I'm actually just having a long lie in instead 😅
Phasing out my ADHD meds is coming with various side effects.
Currently I'm ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED.
Which I'm guessing is because I need to mask a bit more than I was when on the full dose, which is tiring.
(The aim is to see if I've changed my environment enough to drop the meds AND the mask...)
Currently I'm ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED.
Which I'm guessing is because I need to mask a bit more than I was when on the full dose, which is tiring.
(The aim is to see if I've changed my environment enough to drop the meds AND the mask...)
December 15, 2025 at 4:25 PM
Phasing out my ADHD meds is coming with various side effects.
Currently I'm ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED.
Which I'm guessing is because I need to mask a bit more than I was when on the full dose, which is tiring.
(The aim is to see if I've changed my environment enough to drop the meds AND the mask...)
Currently I'm ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED.
Which I'm guessing is because I need to mask a bit more than I was when on the full dose, which is tiring.
(The aim is to see if I've changed my environment enough to drop the meds AND the mask...)
I told a white lie to someone recently, (more of a careful omission just to save a load of unnecessary awkward explanation,) and now I'm paying the price because they're asking me about it and I don't want to overtly lie now to maintain the story 😅😬
December 14, 2025 at 11:01 PM
I told a white lie to someone recently, (more of a careful omission just to save a load of unnecessary awkward explanation,) and now I'm paying the price because they're asking me about it and I don't want to overtly lie now to maintain the story 😅😬
I need a badge that says "I'm fine being quiet you don't have to force conversation on me if it's not natural" because boy would that help sometimes
December 12, 2025 at 7:38 PM
I need a badge that says "I'm fine being quiet you don't have to force conversation on me if it's not natural" because boy would that help sometimes
So when are we gonna flip the narrative on the "over diagnosis" bullshit and talk about how this shows how UNDER DIAGNOSED Autism and ADHD have been until recently.
December 10, 2025 at 4:56 PM
So when are we gonna flip the narrative on the "over diagnosis" bullshit and talk about how this shows how UNDER DIAGNOSED Autism and ADHD have been until recently.
Since I began weaning myself off my ADHD meds my snacking has got out of control*. In the last week I've finally got a handle on it but after 7 days of not snacking I'M STILL PUTTING ON WEIGHT.
Pissed off tbh.
Pissed off tbh.
December 10, 2025 at 9:30 AM
Since I began weaning myself off my ADHD meds my snacking has got out of control*. In the last week I've finally got a handle on it but after 7 days of not snacking I'M STILL PUTTING ON WEIGHT.
Pissed off tbh.
Pissed off tbh.
Left my work stuff in the office because I'm going in again today but now it's morning and I'm exhausted and want the extra hour in bed I could have if I worked from home 🙃
December 9, 2025 at 7:16 AM
Left my work stuff in the office because I'm going in again today but now it's morning and I'm exhausted and want the extra hour in bed I could have if I worked from home 🙃
This may be what finally makes me call in sick for a few days to sort my head out.
(More likely I'll just carry on as normal and pretend everything is fine)
(More likely I'll just carry on as normal and pretend everything is fine)
Ah shit I think I'm mourning the life I 'could have had'. I.e. if I'd known all this stuff growing up and didn't waste* my 20s fixing my brain.
*It wasn't actually a waste because I needed to make that journey but you know what I mean.
*It wasn't actually a waste because I needed to make that journey but you know what I mean.
December 8, 2025 at 11:04 AM
This may be what finally makes me call in sick for a few days to sort my head out.
(More likely I'll just carry on as normal and pretend everything is fine)
(More likely I'll just carry on as normal and pretend everything is fine)
Ah some big feelings tonight.
Really need to find somewhere I can talk through them.
Really need to find somewhere I can talk through them.
December 6, 2025 at 4:08 AM
Ah some big feelings tonight.
Really need to find somewhere I can talk through them.
Really need to find somewhere I can talk through them.
Haircut booked at 10.30. They should open at 10. I got here at 10.20 and it was locked. Someone turned up at 10.22 and opened up but it's not my usual barber. My usual has not turned up yet. At 10.28 they tell me my usual finished on Tuesday and moved to Australia.
December 5, 2025 at 10:50 AM
Haircut booked at 10.30. They should open at 10. I got here at 10.20 and it was locked. Someone turned up at 10.22 and opened up but it's not my usual barber. My usual has not turned up yet. At 10.28 they tell me my usual finished on Tuesday and moved to Australia.
I don't really know the call-in-sick procedure for my (not so) new job and now it's an awkward game of chicken because I need to find out but if I ask and then I'm off sick soon afterwards it'll look planned 🙃
Partly because I could do with a couple of sick days for a sensory meltdown to subside...
Partly because I could do with a couple of sick days for a sensory meltdown to subside...
December 3, 2025 at 8:52 AM
I don't really know the call-in-sick procedure for my (not so) new job and now it's an awkward game of chicken because I need to find out but if I ask and then I'm off sick soon afterwards it'll look planned 🙃
Partly because I could do with a couple of sick days for a sensory meltdown to subside...
Partly because I could do with a couple of sick days for a sensory meltdown to subside...
My mood has probably been too low/inconsistent for too long now so I think it's time I went to my GP. Maybe I need vitamin D shots or something.
December 1, 2025 at 7:33 AM
My mood has probably been too low/inconsistent for too long now so I think it's time I went to my GP. Maybe I need vitamin D shots or something.
This is too bloody early to be awake on a Sunday. Remind me to double check timings before I book races in future 😴
November 30, 2025 at 6:13 AM
This is too bloody early to be awake on a Sunday. Remind me to double check timings before I book races in future 😴
I have a fasting blood test in the morning which is theoretically a great way to force myself not to snack tonight. But all I can think is "you've still got 45 minutes to stuff your face"
November 28, 2025 at 8:15 PM
I have a fasting blood test in the morning which is theoretically a great way to force myself not to snack tonight. But all I can think is "you've still got 45 minutes to stuff your face"
Being diagnosed as neuro divergent as an adult I often realise shit from my childhood were obvious signs.
I NEVER remembered to eat the chocolate from my advent calendar. I'd generally eat it all in one go at the end as a result. And I was obese as a kid so it's not like I didn't want it 😅
I NEVER remembered to eat the chocolate from my advent calendar. I'd generally eat it all in one go at the end as a result. And I was obese as a kid so it's not like I didn't want it 😅
November 25, 2025 at 8:53 PM
Being diagnosed as neuro divergent as an adult I often realise shit from my childhood were obvious signs.
I NEVER remembered to eat the chocolate from my advent calendar. I'd generally eat it all in one go at the end as a result. And I was obese as a kid so it's not like I didn't want it 😅
I NEVER remembered to eat the chocolate from my advent calendar. I'd generally eat it all in one go at the end as a result. And I was obese as a kid so it's not like I didn't want it 😅
My Garmin gave me a sleep score of 98 out of 100 for last night.
I feel somewhat differently about it. 😴
I feel somewhat differently about it. 😴
November 24, 2025 at 8:58 AM
My Garmin gave me a sleep score of 98 out of 100 for last night.
I feel somewhat differently about it. 😴
I feel somewhat differently about it. 😴
Not had the best day.
Kinda in the mood to just turn full chaos mode. Like there's only a month left of the year, let's fuck shit up.
It's high-risk high-reward. Could self destruct, could do some epic nonsense.
Kinda in the mood to just turn full chaos mode. Like there's only a month left of the year, let's fuck shit up.
It's high-risk high-reward. Could self destruct, could do some epic nonsense.
November 23, 2025 at 8:53 PM
Not had the best day.
Kinda in the mood to just turn full chaos mode. Like there's only a month left of the year, let's fuck shit up.
It's high-risk high-reward. Could self destruct, could do some epic nonsense.
Kinda in the mood to just turn full chaos mode. Like there's only a month left of the year, let's fuck shit up.
It's high-risk high-reward. Could self destruct, could do some epic nonsense.
I need a shorthand way to signal to my friends "I'm a bit sad but not in a way you need to worry - just in a way that I could do with some human interaction - but not so desperately anyone needs to stop what they're doing - just when you're free can we hang out..."
November 22, 2025 at 6:29 PM
I need a shorthand way to signal to my friends "I'm a bit sad but not in a way you need to worry - just in a way that I could do with some human interaction - but not so desperately anyone needs to stop what they're doing - just when you're free can we hang out..."