And I’m somehow supposed to believe that my life means something to the people around me lol

Hell I can’t even afford the not so optional diet and meds that my life depends on and not having them makes my health decline even further yet not a single person wants or offers to help

The amount of trauma I went through in this country caused me way too many chronic illnesses and every fucking time i think about how this is my life now FOREVER it makes me have an mental breakdown

All I’m left with is illness, depression and an awful loop of poverty which I can’t escape
I’m genuinely so sad and empty

I really thought I had good friends who were like family to me but it seems it was only one sided
They all found new people and moved on and left me behind
My life literally stopped progressing the moment I left the country

Now that I think about they are THE rudest group of people I met

Jongin’s voice was the cheery on top

Who knew that the only online friend I have who I fought and had couple misunderstandings with but we pulled through, turned out to be the best friend I’ll probably ever have
It’s a shame we never met irl and not to sound depressing but I don’t feel like I’ll ever meet her in this life

Yes I no longer care and it no longer hurts as much as it used to but it’s still sad and i still feel isolated because I no longer have anyone to bond with like I did couple years back and at this age I don’t think I’ll ever have another shot at this