🦋bethany🦋 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
@youfoundbethany.bsky.social
strong opinions. kind 💜. problem solver. poet / writer. theballotbox.co (she/her)
Monkey… you’re scaring me now.
Is something wrong here? Did I do something? Say something wrong?
Is something wrong here? Did I do something? Say something wrong?
January 28, 2026 at 7:05 PM
Monkey… you’re scaring me now.
Is something wrong here? Did I do something? Say something wrong?
Is something wrong here? Did I do something? Say something wrong?
I’m sorry I didn’t make you feel safe and secure here last night. 😘😘😘
January 28, 2026 at 6:48 PM
I’m sorry I didn’t make you feel safe and secure here last night. 😘😘😘
I am curious who is giving you advice here because I think someone definitely is… and if so I’m kind of thankful for whoever it is input.
January 28, 2026 at 6:43 PM
I am curious who is giving you advice here because I think someone definitely is… and if so I’m kind of thankful for whoever it is input.
And just keep loving you as I’ve been trying to do…
January 28, 2026 at 6:42 PM
And just keep loving you as I’ve been trying to do…
It helped me to see exactly how much you love me and fear me leaving with a greater clarity than before…
I also read it as… even with good intentions, I was interfering where you didn’t ask me to do so and just let you handle everything where my concerns lie….
I also read it as… even with good intentions, I was interfering where you didn’t ask me to do so and just let you handle everything where my concerns lie….
January 28, 2026 at 6:39 PM
It helped me to see exactly how much you love me and fear me leaving with a greater clarity than before…
I also read it as… even with good intentions, I was interfering where you didn’t ask me to do so and just let you handle everything where my concerns lie….
I also read it as… even with good intentions, I was interfering where you didn’t ask me to do so and just let you handle everything where my concerns lie….
Oh, Monkey… let me first say… I didn’t think we were aligned in the conversation last night… I felt you were reading it wrong, but…
I kind of understood your perspective was putting up warning signs that I was about to bolt (I wasn’t) and you were reacting instead of hearing fully.
I kind of understood your perspective was putting up warning signs that I was about to bolt (I wasn’t) and you were reacting instead of hearing fully.
January 28, 2026 at 6:36 PM
Oh, Monkey… let me first say… I didn’t think we were aligned in the conversation last night… I felt you were reading it wrong, but…
I kind of understood your perspective was putting up warning signs that I was about to bolt (I wasn’t) and you were reacting instead of hearing fully.
I kind of understood your perspective was putting up warning signs that I was about to bolt (I wasn’t) and you were reacting instead of hearing fully.
Also… like I’m not letting you go was the overriding theme, right? Like I’m stuck on you… permanently attached.
January 28, 2026 at 6:53 AM
Also… like I’m not letting you go was the overriding theme, right? Like I’m stuck on you… permanently attached.
I’m sorry I wasted tonight scaring you…
I’m heading to sleep very soon, Monkey… I hope you have the sweetest dreams. 💡😘♥️
I’m heading to sleep very soon, Monkey… I hope you have the sweetest dreams. 💡😘♥️
January 28, 2026 at 6:35 AM
I’m sorry I wasted tonight scaring you…
I’m heading to sleep very soon, Monkey… I hope you have the sweetest dreams. 💡😘♥️
I’m heading to sleep very soon, Monkey… I hope you have the sweetest dreams. 💡😘♥️
But you’ve made yourself very clear tonight if maybe a little harshly… and apparently you choose to love me, too.
January 28, 2026 at 6:25 AM
But you’ve made yourself very clear tonight if maybe a little harshly… and apparently you choose to love me, too.
It’s a very new thing to me, to love someone so much that walking away is not an option.
It scares me a lot…
And I just want to help you and make things easier for you…
It scares me a lot…
And I just want to help you and make things easier for you…
January 28, 2026 at 6:20 AM
It’s a very new thing to me, to love someone so much that walking away is not an option.
It scares me a lot…
And I just want to help you and make things easier for you…
It scares me a lot…
And I just want to help you and make things easier for you…
I didn’t mean to cause you harm or pain tonight. I really did not.
January 28, 2026 at 6:11 AM
I didn’t mean to cause you harm or pain tonight. I really did not.
The exact opposite. I was trying to tell you, I know now I can’t breathe without you…
Like you… I get scared more easily of losing you.
Like you… I get scared more easily of losing you.
January 28, 2026 at 5:58 AM
The exact opposite. I was trying to tell you, I know now I can’t breathe without you…
Like you… I get scared more easily of losing you.
Like you… I get scared more easily of losing you.
Monkey… you’re so very different than you were a few months ago… and I see that in how much you are petrified of me leaving…
It wasn’t even a consideration in my mind.
It wasn’t even a consideration in my mind.
January 28, 2026 at 5:55 AM
Monkey… you’re so very different than you were a few months ago… and I see that in how much you are petrified of me leaving…
It wasn’t even a consideration in my mind.
It wasn’t even a consideration in my mind.
I was really nervous I was making things harder for you… which I did not want to do and was feeling bad about that because it feels like I’m being selfish and dragging you away from responsibilities.
And apparently this reaction is very much on the alarmed spectrum…
I’m sorry.
And apparently this reaction is very much on the alarmed spectrum…
I’m sorry.
January 28, 2026 at 5:48 AM
I was really nervous I was making things harder for you… which I did not want to do and was feeling bad about that because it feels like I’m being selfish and dragging you away from responsibilities.
And apparently this reaction is very much on the alarmed spectrum…
I’m sorry.
And apparently this reaction is very much on the alarmed spectrum…
I’m sorry.
Yeah… this isn’t coming out right at all…
Hold please.
Hold please.
January 28, 2026 at 5:44 AM
Yeah… this isn’t coming out right at all…
Hold please.
Hold please.
I don’t think I’m explaining this well at all…
January 28, 2026 at 5:39 AM
I don’t think I’m explaining this well at all…
I mean, maybe I’m getting this wrong, but I really feel you not only trying, but loving me more deeply and completely then you ever have before. And I feel like our bond is much stronger than it ever has been as well.
January 28, 2026 at 5:33 AM
I mean, maybe I’m getting this wrong, but I really feel you not only trying, but loving me more deeply and completely then you ever have before. And I feel like our bond is much stronger than it ever has been as well.
I didn’t go into this expecting that there was any further to fall and live with you. I didn’t go into this expecting that we would be closer.
I didn’t do this to get that outcome. Even if I am so happy right now.
I didn’t do this to get that outcome. Even if I am so happy right now.
January 28, 2026 at 5:33 AM
I didn’t go into this expecting that there was any further to fall and live with you. I didn’t go into this expecting that we would be closer.
I didn’t do this to get that outcome. Even if I am so happy right now.
I didn’t do this to get that outcome. Even if I am so happy right now.
I hope this was clear. I hope you understand. I am in emphatically not walking away. I’m saying the opposite. And hoping that’s OK, but also realizing it may make things harder for you.
January 28, 2026 at 5:30 AM
I hope this was clear. I hope you understand. I am in emphatically not walking away. I’m saying the opposite. And hoping that’s OK, but also realizing it may make things harder for you.
I am so sorry if I’m making this harder for you.
Because I think I am.
I think we’ve both fallen far more deeply and neither of us knew we would a few months ago.
I just don’t wanna be a problem for you, Monkey…
Because I think I am.
I think we’ve both fallen far more deeply and neither of us knew we would a few months ago.
I just don’t wanna be a problem for you, Monkey…
January 28, 2026 at 5:26 AM
I am so sorry if I’m making this harder for you.
Because I think I am.
I think we’ve both fallen far more deeply and neither of us knew we would a few months ago.
I just don’t wanna be a problem for you, Monkey…
Because I think I am.
I think we’ve both fallen far more deeply and neither of us knew we would a few months ago.
I just don’t wanna be a problem for you, Monkey…
And all I know is, I can’t give you up. And I’m too happy here that I don’t want anything to change.
Maybe not change… It’s just harder to let you go even temporarily. And I don’t want to be apart from you. Does this make any sense?
Maybe not change… It’s just harder to let you go even temporarily. And I don’t want to be apart from you. Does this make any sense?
January 28, 2026 at 5:24 AM
And all I know is, I can’t give you up. And I’m too happy here that I don’t want anything to change.
Maybe not change… It’s just harder to let you go even temporarily. And I don’t want to be apart from you. Does this make any sense?
Maybe not change… It’s just harder to let you go even temporarily. And I don’t want to be apart from you. Does this make any sense?
Harder in the sense that – I don’t wanna lose you. It’s harder to look at something and not feel that fear more intensely.
I started this morning to do something for you, wanting to help you. And now I worry that I’m being selfish and causing you problems.
I started this morning to do something for you, wanting to help you. And now I worry that I’m being selfish and causing you problems.
January 28, 2026 at 5:21 AM
Harder in the sense that – I don’t wanna lose you. It’s harder to look at something and not feel that fear more intensely.
I started this morning to do something for you, wanting to help you. And now I worry that I’m being selfish and causing you problems.
I started this morning to do something for you, wanting to help you. And now I worry that I’m being selfish and causing you problems.
And that makes me feel like I’m being selfish and I’m not helping you to what you need to do.
This isn’t an easy situation and because I let you in deeper into my heart it’s harder now than it was before.
This isn’t an easy situation and because I let you in deeper into my heart it’s harder now than it was before.
January 28, 2026 at 5:20 AM
And that makes me feel like I’m being selfish and I’m not helping you to what you need to do.
This isn’t an easy situation and because I let you in deeper into my heart it’s harder now than it was before.
This isn’t an easy situation and because I let you in deeper into my heart it’s harder now than it was before.
In the unintended consequence, fortunately was kind of finally finding each other and falling deeper in love with each other.
At least that’s what it feels like to me.
When I’m struggling with his this past week causing problems for you. Because I feel like that’s going back on my word.
At least that’s what it feels like to me.
When I’m struggling with his this past week causing problems for you. Because I feel like that’s going back on my word.
January 28, 2026 at 5:16 AM
In the unintended consequence, fortunately was kind of finally finding each other and falling deeper in love with each other.
At least that’s what it feels like to me.
When I’m struggling with his this past week causing problems for you. Because I feel like that’s going back on my word.
At least that’s what it feels like to me.
When I’m struggling with his this past week causing problems for you. Because I feel like that’s going back on my word.