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yukirayu.bsky.social
in a state of N+C brainrot once more.
@yukirayu.bsky.social
fen. 27. she/her. occasionally nsfw.

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Fujieda was right. Towa's "Euphoria" is nothing like Maya's "Euphoria".

Especially since Towa is the only one who truly experiences it.

He can love, and he can be loved as who he is, and more often than not, nothing else brings greater happiness than that. (11/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
Even in her final moments, she left one final deception, both to others and to herself.

She never really discovered true joy. She never experienced the purest essence of euphoria, which is brought by genuine and *mutual* love.

Something that only Towa gets to have. (10/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
At most, she only expressed the awareness that her nature never allowed her to connect with others.

Her nature, which led her to do everything she did, should have made her happy.

But in reality, in contrast to her claims, it didn't. She died miserable and lonely. (9/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
One would think that she didn't have a single regret over everything she did.

And technically, that's correct.

Her (true) final message in her diary never had her undergo an epiphany and feel remorse for everything she did. (8/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
How did she cap off her iconic speech? "I wanted you to discover that enjoyment, just like I did."

What did she order Sakaki? "To help Towa find true happiness in her stead."

Her very last words? "Please be happy. May we both find our rapture." (7/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
From everything that Maya did to everyone, whether she did it with her own hands or by manipulating the people around her, makes it easy to think she was content with her lot in life.

Her final message, which she recorded for Towa, made both him and us think that. (6/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
And as shown with his love interests, the desire Towa wishes to capture and paint need not necessarily reflect someone's inner darkness, since what may lie hidden beneath a person's heart is something that can't be defined as such. (4/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
However, with Maya, all of her clients' desires were always immoral, sinful and catered to the worst aspects of human nature.

Sure, Towa had some disturbing clients, but Ikuina, Asakura and Kirihara were already influenced by Maya's business, directly or otherwise. (3/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
There's a difference between Maya's Euphoria and Towa's Euphoria.

For Maya, it was a business for people to "achieve happiness" by enabling their deepest desires.

For Towa, it was his "style" as an artist as he paints the instant someone's innermost desire is fulfilled. (2/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
#SlowDamage #スロダメ #スロウ・ダメージ

[META REPOST: EDITED]

These are Fujieda's words, which can (potentially) help Towa break out of Maya's psychological hold on him for good.

We know what he meant to say: "Nothing of your mother defines your identity. You're not her."

But that's not all. (1/11)
January 4, 2025 at 2:35 PM
Between Taku, Rei and Madarame, it's Taku's route who has the most replay value after you go through Fujieda's route because of *everything* you'll start noticing that you missed before.

And this, for me, is the one that stands out the most. (17/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
From seeing Towa as a substitute to harboring respect but not having feelings for Maya... when it comes to all those claims, Taku is just the scapegoat, whereas Sakaki is the culprit.

The final route makes it clear what their stances really are. (16/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
Isn't it just funny and twisted that all the things Taku says whenever Maya is concerned, many of the things that Toono accuses Taku of being, actually apply to Sakaki? (15/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
While it flew past Towa's head, Taku meant to say that before he learned about what Towa really went through at Euphoria, he once admired Maya. He was one of the many who got fooled by her. But when he found out the truth, his admiration for her went down the drain. (14/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
How ironic it is that the one who knew of Maya's psychopathy the entire time didn't see that little part of her that was human lurking beneath all her evil, yet the one who was deceived by her till the very end could notice that side of her. (12/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
But it was that same manipulative and ruthless psychopath that Sakaki admired in Maya. It was that same admiration for such a kind of person that allowed him to be Maya's right-hand man. However, that's all he saw, nothing more. (11/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
Taku may have been lying or vague on details to distract Towa from remembering the truth about Maya. But like with the candy shop owner, he noticed there was something Maya was hiding: that small part of her that was aware she's a psychopath and what it deprived her of. (10/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
With this, how they see Towa and how they knew Maya is as different as night and day.

Taku doesn't see Towa as a surrogate for Maya. Sakaki does. Taku never knew about the kind of person Maya really was until it was too late. Sakaki always knew.

There's more to this. (9/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
And by that, I mean if the way Towa wanted to remember her wouldn't allow Maya's plan to come to fruition, then Sakaki wouldn't be helpful in Towa's investigation. After all, the trigger that he needed to enact that plan was having any of Towa's art models kill themselves. (8/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
Taku feared that if Towa remembered his past, he wouldn't be able to handle the trauma of his lost memories. And as we all know, his fears were not unfounded.

Sakaki only kept quiet because he wanted Towa to remember Maya under specific circumstances. (7/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
But why does Sakaki want to keep Towa safe, even in the routes where he gave up on enacting Maya's plan? Because Towa is still Maya's son and all that's left of her. So Toono's accusation towards Taku actually applies to Sakaki... without the infatuation bit. (5/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
Taku's concern for Towa is genuine, even if it makes him do questionable things. His protectiveness of Towa does involve Maya, but it's mostly about shielding Towa from the damage she left on him. (4/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
Just a few words from Toono serve as a massive foreshadowing for the final route. In Taku's route, it's easy to assume that Taku and Sakaki are on the same page when it comes to protecting Towa. It's not entirely wrong. (2/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
#SlowDamage #スロダメ #スロウ・ダメージ

[TWITTER META REPOST: EDITED]

In terms of both characterization and narrative role, it's only Fujieda who's keeping Taku from being the "true route" character, which says something about Kabura-sensei's masterful writing. (1/17)
December 4, 2024 at 9:52 AM
They now know how much the other loves them, so a mutual admission of their feelings won't do. Because so much had changed for them to calmly end the conversation and the night with just that.

They also needed to know through touch how much the other yearned for them. (10/13)
December 1, 2024 at 2:29 PM